Yesterday I questioned myself. What are my strengths, what are my talents, what am I good at. Felt very inadequate in my job and in my ministry. In conclusion, I can only call myself a jack of all trades but master of none.

I look around and see everyone having a talent or capability that is so prominent. They have dreams and a passion for something larger than themselves. But what do I have? I have no starking abilities in any areas.

Was just ranting to Alexis that I feel so lousy and so useless. Feeling that I'm so not marketing material and that I'm not not cut out for this job. I do know that being my first job, I have so much to learn and I'm not great at my skills yet. But personality wise, just don't feel like a marketing person too. Like when I look at the other marketing collegues, everything about them screams marketing. They are so well groomed, speak with so much confidence and have all these great ideas...

And also with regards to ministry, I just feel so argh sometimes.... I dun even kow where to begin. Just feel like giving it up sometimes. Feel I'm so not the kind of person to do publicity. And having interest doesn't means you are good or can be good. Come to think of it, what was done for Christmas is not even anywhere near good. Think I'm not going to do it in future and leave the experts to do their job.

But well like Alexis said too, he's not the best person to be doing video or media, but he doesn't mind that's why he's doing it. Maybe that's what I'm too? I'm no where near good for doing publicity but only cause I don't mind doing it that's why I'm doing it again... I really feel confused and demoralized. Like obviously I aint the best person to do it, but yet I still do it. I just feel that I need to have a passion for something in life, but what is it? Or maybe I just don't.....

Confused..