Am I missing it?

You know these few day with all the mad rush with projects and all, I feel kinda empty inside. Like something is lacking. As I sat alone on a bus reading this book Boy Meets Girl, it really triggered a lot of thoughts in me. Oh and did I mention it was raining? Somehow if you put me on a bus and when it's raining I tend to get pretty reflective. Not all the time, cause sometimes I might take the chance to catch 40 winks. Anyway besides just thoughts about my relationship with Alexis, alot had to do with my walk with God. It's been pretty dry. But not to a point where it's non-existant. Just at a point where it could be abit lot better. And somehow this is like so important. It totally affects everything else about me. Like my mood, my emotions, my thoughts, my actions. It's also a perspective thing. Coz I can swing from being an optimist to a pessimist, not a very healthy thing I know.

I gotta get it back.
I gotta know what I'm living for.
I gotta know what I want in life.
I gotta learn from my mistakes.
I gotta keep growing.
I gotta see the light.

At the end, I want my life to count for something.