So bummed at work today. Felt so frustrated with so many things, like the people who are not doing their work, people who are pushing me around to get their way, people who belittle me, inboxes which has a cranky side, computers which I wish would burn up in flames, news of yet another reorg in the dept, uncertainties, fears, apprehension, insecurities ...

But really I feel so down in the dumps. So mad, so angry, so frustrated. It isn't supposed to be like that. Almost like a plea than a prayer that God would take me away from the stress and pressure at work. And to think that I prayed to God to make me a light where I am in the workplace just this morning. But going by the looks of it, I probably blinded them with my glare than anything else. I don't want to pass day after day after day, in an environment without showing or sharing Christ in how I live my life.

And at the end of a day's work, I just broke down and cried it all out. I know I didn't want to be so ugly, so mad, so bad, so easily upset or irritated....I'm only human. But so was Jesus was the reminder that rang in my head, yet he is without sin... I need to rise above the circumstances. I need to see the BIG BIG God in my life, in my work, in my family and start to see that though He is so BIG BIG BIG, I'm not small small fry in His eyes :)