Sacrifice

As I stood in today's 10am service singing the chorus of a Christmas carol, my heart felt a pang of pain, of disappointment, of regret, of sadness. My parents did not come to church as promised the day before. But I should have known... but I could have done more.

Christmas, the time to remember the greatest sacrifice of all, when God gave his only begotten Son without with holding the very best for you and I. And here I am not even willing to make a small sacrifice to accompany my parents to go for the morning service, just because I wanted to get more rest with a full day's programme for today. If I did, maybe they would come to church. Instead they went somewhere else. I guess it's not an entirely bad thing since they went to church, but still... *argh* Feel so ugly, feel so selfish.

God's teaching me am I willing to sacrifice so that others can know him, so that others can draw closer to Him? Find that in 2004, I have been more private, less generous. I must change.

Generosity.
I want to be more generous with my time. Not to be in a hurry with God, with people. To spend more time with others, especially my family.
I want to be more generous with my affection. To show more love and concern for others. To be more sensitive to those in need of a hug, a word of encouragement, a sms to remind them they are loved and remembered.
I want to be more generous with my resources. To allow myself to be a channel of blessing to someone else who needs help. To be available and have that spirit of helps released.

Enable me Lord I pray, Amen.