Had a pretty tough time deciding if I should seek out a 2nd opinion before I go for the operation to remove the fibroids. On one hand, I really felt that it's necessary to have the operation because of the pain, but on the other hand, it is an invasive operation hence not very good for the body, especially since I has an earlier operation around the same area when I removed my appendix.

But going to see another doc might be better too, since I didn't really get the chance to raise some of my concerns after the way my mother embrassed me in front of the doc. Yes and this time, my mom can stay at home.

Felt very restless at cell yesterday. Think I switched off when they debated about wisdom, faith, and destiny vs choice. Maybe I was tired, maybe I was shallow, but I wasn't very keen to dig sooooooo deep and read between the lines. K lah maybe I am that shallow. Ha like how when bro ck ended cell, he prayed God help us not to be so shallow. Ta dah, the prayers talking about me. Not that I'm not interested in what God says and what the Bible means, I'm more a hands on person, I want to know how al these can help bring me closer to God, to love him more, to take delight in the situations that's in my way.. Give me theology, I think I'll skip. But that doesn't mean I don't care... Funny how I'm even defending myself on how I feel.

Feel like a thousand miles at way sometimes, from reality, from God, from people that I need to spend more time with, from friends and even myself. Gosh I sound so complex, what's up. So many decisions to make, and I really need the wisdom of God.