Planning for the wedding is so vexing...
Feel so torn, at work, at home, this and that...The struggles never end. When can I be happy?

I need to escape. God guide me but for now, sleep comfort me...

I think the downward spiral feeling never ends.
Talked to a couple of people and all advised against quitting w/o having first finding a job. But can I really stay on, stay sane, stay alive?

I wonder too...

Today I learnt that we can be so caught up in our own problems that we can block out everything, including the voice of God... even when He whispers these words..."I'm in control".

I want to unplug my ears and refocus my eyes on Him again.

Blessed Be Your Name
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing you pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord Blessed be your name

For those precious ones who have walked besided me during the dark times, thank you. I want to find hope and joy in the Lord again and truely have a heart that will say, Lord blessed be your name.

When you start to cry at work everyday, does that mean it's time to quit.
Miserable, upset, depressed...How can a bride to be feel this way?

I want to throw in my resignation letter and be away from work.

It's slowly robbing my joy, my smile, my soul

Proud House Owner

Praise the Lord! Alexis and I finally got our flat today. He was ao anxious that he couldn't sleep last night. I bet he's sleeping soundly now. We'll be relocating to our love nest in McNair Road. So exciting :) Almost can't believe how everything is fast tracked after the proposal. Heh see Alexis,it's because you finally proposed! *kidding kidding* So here's a advise to all the lovely young ladies out there, you MUST insist on a marriage proposal before applying for flat. Don't ever let the guy talk you into applying for flat without a proposal.

Forsee that the next few months will be busy making plans for the wedding and our flat. Oh here's a recommened website for Brides to be. Think I'll be a regular very soon.

Of Hopes and Dreams of a New Life

I am looking forward to many things, some with more eagerness than others.

Top 5 list of things that I'm looking forward to
1. Wedding bells, saying I do & hearing I do too
2. Love nest for the both of us
3. Our very church building
4. A new job
5. Hmm..




Maybe just 4 things for the time being.

Wedding Bells
Alexis & I have decided to have our ROM on the 9th of September. It's a popular date as it's a double date (09/09) And do you know that all double dates are popular dates? Must be the first to e-file for that date. Reason why we chose that date is because it marks our 4th year courtship anniversary. We're planning to go for the next PMC which should be starting in July. But we have a slight problem, as Alexis has classes on Thursdays now. Maybe they would be so nice as to shift it to another day. Seems so far away and at the same time so near. Time to start making preparations soon.

Love Nest
HDB had their one day only sale of HDB units this Monday. These are the remaining units from the previous balloting exercise in the matured estates. Sad to say our queue no is 434, not very high chances of getting our choice unit at Queenstown or Bendeemer. The units in AMK have also been snapped up just after one day and it will only our turn to choose on Monday. If we don't get what we wish for, we'll settle for re-sale...So pray for me, pray real hard that I get it. By the way, my dear sister have applied for her flat in Jurong. Anyone neighbours with her?

Our Church Building
One that comes complete with auditorium, PCH, classrooms, office, maybe even a space for rach's cafe :) And perhaps I'll open a bookshop beside her. I really can't wait for the day. Heh Alexis and I were hoping to be the first couple to march down the aisle in our very own church, but we can't wait! There's so much to look forward to, like popping over at lunch time, having a quiet spot to go to for lunch, walking over to PCH frm my office, youth service on a Sat that can go overtime w/o worrying about the time, supper at Lao Pa Sat, own youth room and Francis said maybe even a whole storey of our own. But more importantly, see more pple coming for the youth servce, see the fellowship growing stronger.

New Job
Yeah, things at work are gettiing kind of messy and I'm really starting to lose faith in my company, in the way things are done and how business is done. Perhaps it's time to move on after all I'm entering into another phrase of life. Just yesterday morning I asked God for a sign if He's okay with my intended move. I'll take it as a yes, if I receive a email from HR on any job openings in the bank. They do send email blast to all staff from time to time, but not very regularly. And lo and behold, they sent an email after lunch..God are you telling me something?

These are my hopes of dreams at this juncture in my life.