The results of the balloting were released last Friday and no we didn't get the flat... again. It's kinda disappointing, but I wasn't placing all my hopes on it this time. Not that I do not look forward to start my life with Alexis, but it's such a BIG step into the unknown too and I feel so unprepared for it. Plus we haven't attended PMC, ha! I think he feels the same way too. I wonder how life will change when I'm married. And well since we didn' get the flat, we'll just wait and see how it goes...

I feel I need to enrol in the school of life to learn how to balance my life better. With work, with family, with ministry, with Alexis, with friends. Learning how to juggle them all and do it well. The easiest way is to escape, to hide away from responsibilities, from committment, from duties, from obligations, from expectations, from everything. But it's just not right, that's just too selfish, it's so wrong and guilt creeps and I get all into this depressive and I hate myself lousy state. And yet having to care, having to bother, having to do more than what I want to do does tire me. I think I'm need some direction.I think I need a revelation of the BIGness of God. Yeah of how BIG god really is. This has been a crazy tiring month with too much roadshows, taking me time off from cell, from fellowship, too much bitchiness at work, political games. I need to immerse myself in a different atmosphere, in a Godly environment.

Quarter life crisis.. I think it's just an excuse too. Better stop making excuses and get pick up those balls and start juggling again. The get away is perhaps the best time to start all over again. To slow down, to spend time with God, to get my life in check.

So chin up girl and count down the day to my holiday. Yipe I'm off to HK tomorrow. See ya next week!

Hey that's me!

Taken from yesterday's papers


brought to you by UOB :P

Hong Kong here I come

The countdown begins... 2 more weeks to go.

BBQ was a blast after all. Had lots of fun playing dog and bone, wacky moments, hilarious moments, think pretty boys in their ru hua state (Sure gotta post one of their faces here!), cooking, eating, fellowshipping and bonding.

Thanks to all who came, yes a record breaking of 65 of you! And of course those who helped out in one way or another from buying stuffs, to preparing food, to cooking to the bringing your friends, to just being there and being a part of this youth family and I really think it's what the pastors talked about today at the service. I lobe this youth family and I want to still be a part of this dynamic, energetic, bubbly, lively bunch.

And after this I gotta start to take care of myself. Picked up some tips from my dear sista, Charlotte, aka the YOUNG one on how to start preserving myself so I can keep youthful. Take care of myself, inside and out,ie physically, mentally and spiritually. So it's time to hit those minimum 7 hours of sleep.

Zzzz land here I come.

Everything is going down hill even before I reach the mark of a quarter of a century. Feel so disfigured by my terrible terrible complexion that I dread seeing myself in the mirror. I need a facial, I need a face lift, I need botox!

Anyway I'll be taking part in my bank's roadshow whicg is going to burn up a couple of my weekends. So please come and support.

What's it about?
It's the ‘UOB Easy Money Deal’ Campaign
Promotion: Customers will be receive S$50 cash incentive. Plus, purchase an iPod Shuffle at a special price of S$129 retailing at S$178.

All you need to do is open a new FlexiDeposit account with S$5,000 made with new funds only, (Not transferred from an existing UOB savings/current/fixed deposit account or in the form UOB cheques or cashier’s order) And if you have an existing FlexiDeposit account, you can deposit S$5,000 (new funds only) at any UOB branch to enjoy the offer.

Hmm the catch is that the S$5,000 deposit must be maintained in the account for a period of 3 months. If the deposit is withdrawn within 3 months, the Bank will deduct the S$50 cash incentive plus the cost of S$49 for the iPod Shuffle. And if the new FlexiDeposit account is closed within 6 months, an account closure fee of S$30 will apply. (But the latter applies to all acc)

So it's really that easy. What's more this acc lets you earn more interest that other banks.

So please come and look for me at these branches and these dates and timing, because we have stupid targets to meet. 40 accounts per day!

I'm on schedule on
9 April : Orchard branch (besides old OG) 11-8pm
11 April :City hall auto lobby (in the MRT station) 11-2pm
13 April : City hall auto lobby 11-8pm
14 April : City hall auto lobby 11-2pm
26 April : Tiong Bahru 11-2pm

Come come okay :)and MUST look for me yeah. If keen just get forms from me. Buy one coffee for one account!

Feeling so lousy about myself. Just had a brainstorming session with a few person if we should proceed or cancel the bbq on Sunday. Feel so miserly for complaining about the booked pit, little faith that pple wun come, the sky will pour...

Rain Rain go away...

And yes the bbq is still on! Pit 18 at East Coast Park, see you there!

Chocolate craving

Had such strong chocolate craving. But had to watch my diet so I settled for chocolate milk and twigges. I want chocolate!!!!! I demand to have them NOW!

I have to work on weekends! Please pray that I can siam man. Don't they know that our personal lifes are more important that the interest of the bank, unless we're paid OT... No, then again,, I rather have my weekend. Do pray do pray... I wanna go for E training on Sat and BBQ on Sun.

With a grateful heart

So so much to be thankful for.

Easter Sunday last week was great. So humbled to be a part of this family in CP. Seeing how everyone gave their best for the Lord, from the dancers, to musicians, to actors and actress, to the backstage and logistics and all involved. And through all the email exchanges among the cell, the planning comm, all I can say is, how beautiful it is. Easter reminded me once again of the price that the Lord Jesus bought me for, His Blood. What more can I ever ask for? And Praise the Lord! 7 cases of salvations :) Heaven is indeed rejoicing at these new family additions.

Work wise, God has proven to be oh so good and faithful. Just when I feel this aspect of my life collapsing, God sprung a surprise on me by turning things around, a promotion and a mean bonus! God you are indeed in control. I still recall that I wasn't intending to go to the office last Thursday after my training, because I didn't wanna get bogged down by work so that my mind is clear before the drama. But my boss insisted that I return. But it was worthwhile and truely nothing short of a miracle too.

Mom came to church today. Yeah! Pray that she'll come more regularly and get more integrated into a cell group too. I think it's something that she desires as well, but she's just holding because of bad experiences she had in the past and she's been too dependent on my Dad to accompany her. And it's really up to me to keep praying for her and also to make every effort to get her to church. Want her to be connected so that she'll not get easily swayed and stop going again esp if I'm not going to be living under the same roof as her in the near future.

It's also after the Meet the Parents session today, that I get into the mindset of parents and see a little more from my mom's perspective. It's funny how a mom shared how her son complained that she nagged at him, when to her, she was trying to talk and communicate to him. I guess a lot of times, I'm like that too. I need more patience, patience and love. Wrote this in my journal, "Who by being judgemental can draw others to Christ?"

The story of the Samartian woman says it all... If not because of the acceptance, the love and the forgiveness of God, how can she ever know the Messiah? But how often have I been like the Pharisee to be so quick to condemn, so quick to judge. Sometimes to really show and express love is easier said than done. Esp to love those whom we think are not worthy to be loved. I'm learning, still learning.

Thank you God for loving me.