Awaken my spirit, Lord
With the recent tsunmi tragedy that affected our neighbours, it is by no coincidence that we were spared of this calamity. Others may attribute it to our geographic location, by chance, by luck, but don't they recognize that it's the hand of God protecting this land? So much as happened to our neighbours in these recent years and Singapore has been shielded time and time again from a huge disaster from happening. It is indeed the grace of God that preserved us so that we may rise up to fulfill the Antioch calling that He's placed upon us in this land.
Lord may you awaken me to see that the times are so urgent, so pressing, so precious. Help me not to take for granted what I have enjoyed all my life and to appreciate and cherish all that you've given me. I'm humbled by all these because it is not of our own merit, but simply because you're a God of grace and mercy. A god of comopassion and a God of love. I pray for boldness to speak your truth to those who need to know you, who need to get back to you, who need you in their lives. Open my eyes to look beyond my own world and to see and know your heart for those you died for. Your love for them, that none shall perish and have eternal life. Especially for those close to my heart, to make right with them before the new year and to live a life that radiates your love and all that you are.
Tonight as we pray, may you raise up from among us prayer warriors and intercessors who will pray like never before. Who will press in to pray until there is a breakthrough in the heavenly realms. Who will know what is your heart. Who will count as righteouness and whose prayers will avail much.
Lets usher in the new year by covering it with prayer. For God to be soverign in all that has happened and all that will be in the new year.
If you had just one life, how will you live it? I choose to live it for my King.
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Monday, December 27, 2004
Discerning Spirit
Been reading up some articles on the gift of discernment and there are so many views on the purpose and how to exercise it. Quite honestly it's not something that I have been exercising though as a woman I do have much experiences on my "gut feel" But the gift of discernment goes deeper than that, in that it is able to test the spirits and know if a word, a person's spirit is correct or wrong. And also this comes with much sensitivity of the Holy Spirit, which will come about through prayers and a deeper intimacy with the Lord. I want to learn how to get into it and be used by God in this area.
Lord, awaken my senses that I may be more sensitive to HS and begin to operate in the giftings that you have given me. And not just in this area, but allow me to be stretched to used in the way that you have created me for.
Been reading up some articles on the gift of discernment and there are so many views on the purpose and how to exercise it. Quite honestly it's not something that I have been exercising though as a woman I do have much experiences on my "gut feel" But the gift of discernment goes deeper than that, in that it is able to test the spirits and know if a word, a person's spirit is correct or wrong. And also this comes with much sensitivity of the Holy Spirit, which will come about through prayers and a deeper intimacy with the Lord. I want to learn how to get into it and be used by God in this area.
Lord, awaken my senses that I may be more sensitive to HS and begin to operate in the giftings that you have given me. And not just in this area, but allow me to be stretched to used in the way that you have created me for.
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Sacrifice
As I stood in today's 10am service singing the chorus of a Christmas carol, my heart felt a pang of pain, of disappointment, of regret, of sadness. My parents did not come to church as promised the day before. But I should have known... but I could have done more.
Christmas, the time to remember the greatest sacrifice of all, when God gave his only begotten Son without with holding the very best for you and I. And here I am not even willing to make a small sacrifice to accompany my parents to go for the morning service, just because I wanted to get more rest with a full day's programme for today. If I did, maybe they would come to church. Instead they went somewhere else. I guess it's not an entirely bad thing since they went to church, but still... *argh* Feel so ugly, feel so selfish.
God's teaching me am I willing to sacrifice so that others can know him, so that others can draw closer to Him? Find that in 2004, I have been more private, less generous. I must change.
Generosity.
I want to be more generous with my time. Not to be in a hurry with God, with people. To spend more time with others, especially my family.
I want to be more generous with my affection. To show more love and concern for others. To be more sensitive to those in need of a hug, a word of encouragement, a sms to remind them they are loved and remembered.
I want to be more generous with my resources. To allow myself to be a channel of blessing to someone else who needs help. To be available and have that spirit of helps released.
Enable me Lord I pray, Amen.
As I stood in today's 10am service singing the chorus of a Christmas carol, my heart felt a pang of pain, of disappointment, of regret, of sadness. My parents did not come to church as promised the day before. But I should have known... but I could have done more.
Christmas, the time to remember the greatest sacrifice of all, when God gave his only begotten Son without with holding the very best for you and I. And here I am not even willing to make a small sacrifice to accompany my parents to go for the morning service, just because I wanted to get more rest with a full day's programme for today. If I did, maybe they would come to church. Instead they went somewhere else. I guess it's not an entirely bad thing since they went to church, but still... *argh* Feel so ugly, feel so selfish.
God's teaching me am I willing to sacrifice so that others can know him, so that others can draw closer to Him? Find that in 2004, I have been more private, less generous. I must change.
Generosity.
I want to be more generous with my time. Not to be in a hurry with God, with people. To spend more time with others, especially my family.
I want to be more generous with my affection. To show more love and concern for others. To be more sensitive to those in need of a hug, a word of encouragement, a sms to remind them they are loved and remembered.
I want to be more generous with my resources. To allow myself to be a channel of blessing to someone else who needs help. To be available and have that spirit of helps released.
Enable me Lord I pray, Amen.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
*Ah Choo*
Caught the flu bug after my visit to the doc and being out yesterday. The doc was so nice to give me another 2 weeks MC though I supposed to return to work today. But with the flu I had no choice but to graciously accept the MC and rest at home today. Having the flu accompanied by a nasty cough is not helping in my recovery. In fact it has caused quite a bit of pain again in my wound area cause I'm sneezing and coughing so hard. Ahhh and it's not even Christmas! I have not even indulged in the log cakes, turkeys, sparkling champagne, chocolates and all that glorious food and I'm sick :P Why do I always get sick at Christmas? Gotta pray I recover fast okay and I still told my boss that I should be well to return to work next week. Me and my big mouth.
Post Youth Camp
It has been a mighty awesome youth camp. Glad that I was able to make it and not miss out on what the Lord did to so many young lives. The presence of God was so strong in the camp. Such a sweet presence of God. And I've been personally touched by God in the camp through the sermons, the prophecy and also the honesty and earnest worship among the campers. Just so touching to know that God knows my heart and his affirmation of what He has bestowed on me. Still learning to let go of my own inadequacies and lean on Him and what He has promised. Yes and that He will turn my life upside down for the next 3 years! Exciting but also so mixed feelings. But if it's from the Lord, I'm sure that He will enable me to hang on tight and stomach this "upside down" 3 years!
Today's cell was good. Heh hope the girls feel the same despite the nagging and scolding from their two Mamas. But they know we love them and we really want to see them grow and mature and move to the next level. But I can tell that they have been touched by God in the camp too and it takes more than doing QT to sustain this fire.
A reminder for myself too when I get back to the grind of everyday work life very soon.
Yes and to do list on my 2005 calendar will be to attend Fire Meeting! Think that's one thing that God spoke to me about it. That before He sends a revival it is birthed by prayer and it is no coincidence that that's what the first church was doing when the Holy Spirit came, praying! But of course, even before I can talk about revival, it's also to have that line of constant communication to the Heavenly Father. Me and Him & Him to me :)
Caught the flu bug after my visit to the doc and being out yesterday. The doc was so nice to give me another 2 weeks MC though I supposed to return to work today. But with the flu I had no choice but to graciously accept the MC and rest at home today. Having the flu accompanied by a nasty cough is not helping in my recovery. In fact it has caused quite a bit of pain again in my wound area cause I'm sneezing and coughing so hard. Ahhh and it's not even Christmas! I have not even indulged in the log cakes, turkeys, sparkling champagne, chocolates and all that glorious food and I'm sick :P Why do I always get sick at Christmas? Gotta pray I recover fast okay and I still told my boss that I should be well to return to work next week. Me and my big mouth.
Post Youth Camp
It has been a mighty awesome youth camp. Glad that I was able to make it and not miss out on what the Lord did to so many young lives. The presence of God was so strong in the camp. Such a sweet presence of God. And I've been personally touched by God in the camp through the sermons, the prophecy and also the honesty and earnest worship among the campers. Just so touching to know that God knows my heart and his affirmation of what He has bestowed on me. Still learning to let go of my own inadequacies and lean on Him and what He has promised. Yes and that He will turn my life upside down for the next 3 years! Exciting but also so mixed feelings. But if it's from the Lord, I'm sure that He will enable me to hang on tight and stomach this "upside down" 3 years!
Today's cell was good. Heh hope the girls feel the same despite the nagging and scolding from their two Mamas. But they know we love them and we really want to see them grow and mature and move to the next level. But I can tell that they have been touched by God in the camp too and it takes more than doing QT to sustain this fire.
A reminder for myself too when I get back to the grind of everyday work life very soon.
Yes and to do list on my 2005 calendar will be to attend Fire Meeting! Think that's one thing that God spoke to me about it. That before He sends a revival it is birthed by prayer and it is no coincidence that that's what the first church was doing when the Holy Spirit came, praying! But of course, even before I can talk about revival, it's also to have that line of constant communication to the Heavenly Father. Me and Him & Him to me :)
Monday, December 13, 2004
I can't believe how quickly time is slowly slipping away. In another 1 week and 2 days time, I'll be back at work, at my 9-6:30 routine. Bleh! But I just need to endure just a day and a half work and I'll whip out my party poppers and celebrate Christmas. And after another 5 days, bring on the champage and usher in the New Year. And before you know it, 2005 comes to greet you with a reminder that you've just aged another year.
And now that I'm reminded of how little time I'm left till I head back to work, I shall be more mindful and not let the day slip pass.
Over these pass weeks I have read so much. Probably more than what I used to in a year. I can almost feel myself turning green and sprouting glasses and chewing leaves, like a bookworm. But I'm not complaning because these reading materials have made me thought about how I want to improve in diferent aspects of my life come 2005. Be it physically in terms of health and also maintence, but also spirtually and also financially and of course not forgetting plans with Alexis too. I feel very rested and very thankful for this twist of event. Remember how I always complain that I feel so tired and worn out by work and needed a break. And rest I did. Though the operation was not something that I hoped for. But nevertheless I got what I wanted. Gotta agree that Papa God sure has a sense of humour.
Very good feeling about 2005. Am defintely looking forward to it and what is in store for me. But before 2005, there's youth camp that starts tomorrow. Things will be brewing and God will be cooking up a storm. (Huh? where did that come from? I wonder too :P) But anyway, good things are about to happen!
And now that I'm reminded of how little time I'm left till I head back to work, I shall be more mindful and not let the day slip pass.
Over these pass weeks I have read so much. Probably more than what I used to in a year. I can almost feel myself turning green and sprouting glasses and chewing leaves, like a bookworm. But I'm not complaning because these reading materials have made me thought about how I want to improve in diferent aspects of my life come 2005. Be it physically in terms of health and also maintence, but also spirtually and also financially and of course not forgetting plans with Alexis too. I feel very rested and very thankful for this twist of event. Remember how I always complain that I feel so tired and worn out by work and needed a break. And rest I did. Though the operation was not something that I hoped for. But nevertheless I got what I wanted. Gotta agree that Papa God sure has a sense of humour.
Very good feeling about 2005. Am defintely looking forward to it and what is in store for me. But before 2005, there's youth camp that starts tomorrow. Things will be brewing and God will be cooking up a storm. (Huh? where did that come from? I wonder too :P) But anyway, good things are about to happen!
Monday, December 06, 2004
Time for a Change
Did something impulsive yesterday. I went to rebond my hair!
The following are comments from my family
Mom: You look like a China doll. Why don't cut your hair shorter?
Matthew: What so expensive!?!? CRAZY!
Joy: Very nice! I also want to rebond my hair.
Dad: Puzzled look (Probably thinking to himself, "Ddid she do something to her hair?")
Though I love how smooth and how neat my hair is, feel that it's too straight for my liking. But well as Sherly Crow sings it,"I said a change will do you good!"
Did something impulsive yesterday. I went to rebond my hair!
The following are comments from my family
Mom: You look like a China doll. Why don't cut your hair shorter?
Matthew: What so expensive!?!? CRAZY!
Joy: Very nice! I also want to rebond my hair.
Dad: Puzzled look (Probably thinking to himself, "Ddid she do something to her hair?")
Though I love how smooth and how neat my hair is, feel that it's too straight for my liking. But well as Sherly Crow sings it,"I said a change will do you good!"
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