One more day to November 2004

How quickly time flies. Got me thinking about how I spent the year 2004.
I must say that I've grown quite a bit through the months. When you're thrown in the school of life, you've got to learn to adapt, to keep afloat or risk sinking. But thank God, for sending people around me who have guided me along the way, be it in my work place or in the new cell.

It's been a great year nevertheless depsites the many ups and downs. God has been good. But still feel a sense of regret of what I could have done more. God is just reminding me that my life is not my own, that it was bought with a price, the blood of Jesus. And if I just live life as if it were my own, how wrong I have been.

2005, I want to pour my life into the lives of those around me. Investing into the lives of others, esp my youth. Gosh so much to do, so much to do... Can't keep still and not do anything, esp when it affects eternity. Yes I want to invest my life, my time into things and people that will affect eternity. Not some momentary goals and fleeting self seeking objectives. God enpower me to do more for you, to save one more for Jesus. And of course, 2005 will be an exciting year. Yes it will be!
Can't wait for Christmas!

On MC today. Down with cough, sore throat, sore eye and blocked eye. The doc was like, "Wah so many things". Of course lah, I'm not trying to pull a fast one on her to get a day off on Monday because of the Monday Blues. Then again, it might have just a small, tiny winnie bit of that. Ha

And no visit to the doc is complete without popping by the library. Borrowed a couple of home deco magazines. Oh by the way, Alexis and I are contemplating buying a flat. HDBs having a balloting exercise at some of the mature estates in Singapore and we tot we'll give it a shot. Coz this guy of mine is so fussy on where he wants to stay and here's the list.

1. Not too far from town
2. No re-sale flat
3. Not too far from his parents
4. Don't mind being far from mine though
5. Not in the north, because of the horrible traffic jam
6. Convenient and easily accessible

But I am more into the nitty gritty
1. I want to stay above the 7th
2. Need to have a spacious living room, coz I like friends over at my home
3. Excellent if we can have a bath tub
4. Near to MRT or interchange
5. In between our parents (I'm more demoratic, )
6. Must have coffeeshop, supermarket, shopping malls not too far away

We're considering the flats in Geylang, but the location is more like in Kallang just around the corner of the Old Airport Road hawker center. First thought, yeah black pepper crabs anytime for me! No lack of food, yippee!! But since it's a balloting exercise, will leave it in God's hand. If it does go well, we'll get the keys next year. So mixed feelings about it.

On my hand, feeling unprepared to move another step into adulthood, but on the other hand also feel excited to well be married. *giggling and starts to day dream* ok okay, no more high hopes now. But don't worry, you'll know if that day comes.

Egg Mania

Read in the newspapers recently that the price of eggs has gone down. Egg lovers raise your hand in the air and rejoice. Back to days of having half boiled eggs, french toasts, egg muffin, ru dan.

And here are some eggilicious MTVs for all you egg lovers, esp Joce. Enjoy!

Had a pretty tough time deciding if I should seek out a 2nd opinion before I go for the operation to remove the fibroids. On one hand, I really felt that it's necessary to have the operation because of the pain, but on the other hand, it is an invasive operation hence not very good for the body, especially since I has an earlier operation around the same area when I removed my appendix.

But going to see another doc might be better too, since I didn't really get the chance to raise some of my concerns after the way my mother embrassed me in front of the doc. Yes and this time, my mom can stay at home.

Felt very restless at cell yesterday. Think I switched off when they debated about wisdom, faith, and destiny vs choice. Maybe I was tired, maybe I was shallow, but I wasn't very keen to dig sooooooo deep and read between the lines. K lah maybe I am that shallow. Ha like how when bro ck ended cell, he prayed God help us not to be so shallow. Ta dah, the prayers talking about me. Not that I'm not interested in what God says and what the Bible means, I'm more a hands on person, I want to know how al these can help bring me closer to God, to love him more, to take delight in the situations that's in my way.. Give me theology, I think I'll skip. But that doesn't mean I don't care... Funny how I'm even defending myself on how I feel.

Feel like a thousand miles at way sometimes, from reality, from God, from people that I need to spend more time with, from friends and even myself. Gosh I sound so complex, what's up. So many decisions to make, and I really need the wisdom of God.

Hello Kitty

Macdonalds have recently launched their new series of Jewel Hello Kitty collection. There is a toal of 16 of them in the different jewel colours. Pay $1.50 with every purchase of EVM. I bought two of them already, the smoky quartz and rose quartz.

Smoky


Rose Quartz





Plan to get my hands on these remaining ones.
1. Citrine Kitty




2. Blue Chalcedony



3. Cluster Quartz Kitty



4. Geode Kitty



5. Black Quartz Kitty



Will upload the pictures when I get home.

Will any kind soul who eat McDonalds but have no intention to collect them buy them on my behalf? Having a sore throat now, if I eat, it will be suicidal and Alexis can never understand the relationship with girls and hello kitties.

Thank you, thank you!

Feel so restless without being able to go online at home. Some problem with bro's comp so the other comp's are all affected as well.

Feel that I have so much spare time on my hands now. Probably not a bad thing right considering how much time I do spend on the computer at work and at home.

Spend time with myself, spend time with God, spend time with my family, spend time packing my room which needs eternal packing, spend time reading, spend time doing things that I don't usually get to do. Well what a lot of things I have not done...

Yesterday was a slow day. Went for the first service with Alexis at 8 then went to grad Mac breakfast before it was 11. Walked around in Orchard, lazed in the library, washed his car which is already super dirty by the way, had dinner and more lazing watching Jaws. So different form two weeks ago when it was go church, do video and before you know it it's 8pm... Whaha no complaints though. In fact, we're feeling so free now. K I beter speak for myself since I'm pretty sure he enjoys the leisure pace of a Sunday afternoon.

Well excited to do it again for the next production, campaign. Think the motivation to keep going is knowing that a small part of what we do makes a difference and keeps things more interesting in church. Which is how I fel church should be, up to date, technologically advanced, mordern and oh so funky too!

The doctor has confirmed that the growth is 99% fibroids. So an operation is needed to remove it. Operation has been scheduled next month on the 19th. The visit to the doctor was kinda embrassing. My mom insisted on seeing the gyne with me and as you can expect she started telling her grandmother stories on how she got it and how my grandmother and my great grandmother also had it before. And she was asking if the operation could be delayed. But the doctor was like, "why wait, she looks like she's 5 months pregant." What a rude shock, you mean I'm that fat!!!

Oh well so you see having an operation to remove it might not be a bad idea. Maybe after that I cna fit back into those pants again.

Just finished the book that Clydia lent to me, " It's not about me" by Max Lucado. And the content of it, the title says it all. That in everything that happens to us, it's all about God. To be illuminated with this truth, sets so many things in a clearer perspective and in their proper place. How can I be about my Father's business, how can I reflect my Father's likeness, how can I be a mirror of who my Father is.

40 Days of Purpose

Purpose Driven Life*5 Purposes*Worship*Fellowship*Discipleship*Ministry*Evangelism
*New cells*Thankful*Grateful*

It's finally the end of the 40 days of purpose campaign. Today's service was a celebration of the Lord's goodness in so many lives. Been blessed by the testimonies that was screened, and these are only a fraction of what God has done to all these precious lives.

I'm also a testimony of God's goodness in these 40 days. Especially in my cell, where I'm taking the young ones. To see them being more commitment, being faithful in coming for cell and more importantly to see them opening up, sharing their lives, being more teachable, paying attention in cell, being willing to listen and not talk back when being "scolded". But it really gladens my heart to see the cell gelling together, like how the girls will make effort to talk to Eric and being less exclusive and not whisper to each other and share secrets.. at least in cell.

A season for everything. Time for praying, time for waiting, time to celebrate answered prayers. Thank you God for everything.

Tomorrow I'll be going to KK for another check up. Still anxious and a little fearful. But I know that God's in control. Be with me Lord, I pray...