My long due testimony :)

Hope you'll be blessed by this testimony of God's blessings!May you experiense His goodness too.

To live by God's economy is really so exciting and what better testimony of this than the awesome provision of a career in these bleak economic times. Having graduated this year in June, I was looking forward to be in a career of my dreams, to start my new phase of life as a young adult. After my exams I attended the youth camp and there I was greatly blessed and ministered to. In one particular service in the camp, one of the guest speakers prayed for me at the altar call and reminded me of 3 things; that God is my God of direction, salvation and provision. Though it may seem to be a very simple and general statement, it spoke volumes to me and at that time I was so certain that God will indeed be my provider for a job and that it will come to pass very soon.

However, fears of unemployment were also very real and I was trying to keep my spirits high and put my faith in God. Initially I wasn't too affected when I didn't get any responses from the resumes that I sent out. But as time passed by, every effort to send my resumes seemed so demoralizing and difficult. I began to question myself, my abilities, my qualifications, my self-worth. Was there anything wrong with me? Why wouldn't anyone employ me? Disappointment and rejection creeped in. Slowly the days of waiting turned to weeks and the weeks into months.

It was finally during my graduation in August that I found a part time job through my friend's recommendation. A little beam of hope was slowly restored. But the job was a far cry from what I really wanted to do and I continued to press on in my prayers for God to make a way, even though it seemed "impossible". After a few weeks, I left the job because I was very frustrated with it and I decided that I would take the time to really seek and pray about it. God really humbled me in the process and taught me that even though He is a God of impossibles, I shouldn't take it for granted that at the snap of His fingers He would just provide if we never take the effort to ask. My prayers in the past were superficial and self centered as I lived on my own strength and assumed I could depend on myself to find a job. I also spent time talking to the pastors, my peers who were working and as they shared, my perspective of what is a career changed as well. I began to pray that God would put me in a place where I would want to be and where I can be my best in all areas and of course to be Christ ambassador. In my prayers I candidly told God, "God if you open a door for me, make it so obvious that this is the job for me in terms of the job scope, the company, etc, because I may be slow to see it"

Finally after sending more than 50 resumes and going for 13 interviews over a period of 4 months, I finally got a job! I was so surprised at how smoothly the interview went, as I just had to go for one interview and I was selected! If there was anything I learnt, it was how to deal with rejection and keep having faith in God even when it seemed so hard and trying at times! The job offered to me is a position in a reputable bank. The job is something that I could only imagine to be in as I didn't have much relevant
experience even though I was very keen on. But Praise God that he knows my desires and He opened this door and He opened it so wide that I knew for sure that this is IT. I'm glad that I waited this long to get God's best for me and the waiting paid off. I know for a fact that it is God's loving grace towards me and nothing of my own merit that could land me in this job! Praise the Lord, for He cares for me and I know for sure that my life and my future is safe and secure in His hands.

Desperate Measures

The most wonderful part of my job is the two hours lunch breaks. But that comes at a hefty price, on my waistline that is. And my collegues have such hearty appetites that all feelings of guilt disappears as we indulge in our nasi lemak, hokkien mee, tom yan noodles, ba chor mee. You name it, we eat it. But alas, my rear is growing, a sure indication to either not eat so much or exercise.

Being the glutton that I am, I can't bear the thought of giving up all the glorious food and have decided to start exercising. I don't even remember where I had so much motivation to keep to my exercise regime in the early months of the year that I managed to lose 2 kg! I have so gotta lose weight now, else my pants are going to spilt!

I was thinking of waking up at 6am for morning jogs twice a week. Doesn't the thought of it make you wanna just curl back into bed and continue the snooze. So I may not be a morning person, but I'll try my best. Well but if that fails, I still have my saturday's in-line skatings to fall back on and make me feel less guilty about it. Let's see when I'll finally get down to it.

For those of you who frequent the fruity boutique Mango, you probably would know this disgusting truth already. Whoever said that mirrors don't lie havent been to Mango yet. They lie, in fact they tell darn beautiful lies! They make you appear seemingly slimmer and leaner, which by the way, I know is so NOT me. So when I saw myself in the mirror, I was staring hard at my reflection. It was kinda like seeing what I would look if I was a size or two smaller. Did I like what I saw? You bet, but then I dun like living in a lie so I stepped out and took a peep at myself in their full length mirror.

Now that's me, shorter and not so slim and lean :P.

But that made me wanna be a size smaller, so I'm on my quest to be slimmer. Was considering the thought of waking up early, say at 6 every morning to have a jog before I start the day. Doesn't that sound great. Catching the sun rise at the break of dawn, time alone, keeping fit, appreciating nature. K, maybe a bit too early for a late night person like me. Think I'll appreciate more beauty sleep! Hah. But hope is not lost, because I have decided to set aside my saturdays to go in-line skating religiously. Hopefully I'll have better luck with that. Anyone care to join me?

Sun Kissed

8:30am on a Sunday Morning and I'm on Sentosa island for my company's division team building day. My collegues told me how "lucky" I am cause this is the first time in years the company is organizing such an event. If I would have known I would have chosen to start work tomorrow instead! If the objective was team building, then sadly it hasn't been fulfilled. At least not the way that I see it, with people not attending and people sneaking off. After so many hours out in the sun, I've got an ugly tan! K I'm not complaining about the tan, but not when the tan is outlined by a t-shirt. Gotta find a way to get an even tan...

Hey isn't Friday a public holiday? Oh gosh I sure am looking forward to it. I sure could do with a break from work. Work's been okay, well not much for the first week, but it sure seems like more responsibilities will be coming my way. I'm mentally prepared for it so bring it on!!

Little Ms Independent

Today's the 2nd day that I'm working and everything's going pretty smoothly. Oh but I just have to say this, I'm going to be working 7 days a week this week! Coz it's company policy that all new comers don't get to enjoy the Saturdays off till they worked for one month. Maybe I should challenge that! Nah, then again maybe not. But normally I just have to work alt saturdays. As for Sunday, the division's having some department outing at Sentosa at 8:30am and my department is NOT exempted from going and attendance will be taken. Somehow this stirs up nostalgic feeling of being back to my primary secondary school days, doesn't it. By the way, the outing is only expected to end at 4:30pm :P

It's really such a small world too coz I just learnt that one of my cell member's dad works in UOB and so does my neighbour. And it was such a surprise coz I never knew that too. For my neighbour it was such coincidental that they offered me a lift to the MRT and so happen to ask about my work place that I know the lady actually works there! So we're neighbours and collegues! Starting to see how BIG my company is. Wahaha

Oh in case you're wondering what am I doing now, I'm working as a marcomm executive in UOB. Pretty neat and it doesn't seem as overwhelming as what my interviewers make it out to be. At least that's what I hear from my collegue. Then again maybe just not yet.

Alrighty better be off to bed now. *Zzzzzzz*

Went to the National Dental Center today to have my teeth checked and to go for a x-tray coz the other time, the dentist suspects that my wisdom teeth are buried under the gums. It turns out that they were under the gums, just as the dentist suspected and I have to undergo minor surgery to have them removed. All 4 of them! I'm going to faint! Made an appointment in mid December, but I think that it's a pretty bad timing considering I'm going to be part of the christmas choir and of course heaven forbid that I should miss the christmas turkey :)

Been shopping these few days to get me ready for work on monday. Knowing me, I'm not the corporate type, so I had to go shop for skirts, shoes, etc. I'm having al these mixed feeling about working. On one hand I'm really looking forward to it, and on the other hand wonder how I can take on the it. Well guess I shouldn't think too much about it. It's going to be a challenging job and boy do I need to learn proper time management! :P And be more organized as well. If my work desk ever looks like my table at home, I bet my collegues will roll their eyes at me. Ha wait till I explain to them the theory of "organized chaos"! Ha it's a new management term that people come up with to excuse their untidiness and I'm sure I will learn how to apply everyday thanks to all these management gurus!

I'm officially a working adult! Wow wee. Thanks to God who, in Eeleen's word, God likes to give us a little suprise from time to time to remind us who's in control. And He sure did when he allowed to get this job because it's way beyond my expectations. I'm glad that I waited till this long to get what God feels is nothing than the best for me. And of course thanks to all of you who have been praying for me, encouraging me to trust God, in His provision and of course to keep my eyes on Him.

This period of job search has been a long journey for me. After I have sent out almost a zillion resumes, well maybe not a zillion but surely more than 50 over the months from May to Oct. Attending 12 interviews, (if I didn't left out any), to be told sorry we found someone more suitable. But even though I have been disappointed time and time again, in the end I'm getting a job which I can only dream of geting maybe in 3,5 years time. Praise God! But as I look back, it's amazng how I'm being brought to this job. Lets see....

After I graduated, my dad insisted that I must go into insurance to take over his business when he retires. I was very reluctant about it and wanted nothing to do with it. But because I couldn't find a job, I thought I'll just do this to pass my time. And so the months pass... It was until I attended my graduation ceremony that I called up an agency that had a temp position opening did I started work. It's funny how after I started working at this job that the calls to interviews started pouring in. I had to take 2 days off almost every week to attend interviews. I decided that since I was not gaining anything from this job and also I wanted to have a clearer idea of what I wanted in my future career. After merely 3 weeks, I called it quits with ocbc, but the calls to attend interviews still poured in.

And by this time I also had some idea of what I wanted as a career and know where to work towards. God is just amazing, He knows that if he dun make it so plain to me where I should work, I may never know. So He made it possible that I got a job offer so good that I couldnt resist and would know for sure that this is IT! Work will start on Monday then I'll tell you just how exciting my job really is!