HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Goodbye 2003. Hello 2004!

you are violet #EE82EE

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be. Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan. Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

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Hey people, Blessed Christmas to all!

Fell sick today, down with flu, a bad sore throat and a pounding headache *pouts* No fun at all. Eyes felt so puffy and head was swirling away. After the Christmas musical and lunch at Don, came home and slept for 3,4 hours. Think I'm going to take MC tomorrow and catch up on my sleep. Body is rebelling. I need to take care of myself and treat myself to some TLC!

Received a couple of cards and some pressies too! My favourite of them all are the toys I got from Cindy and Eeleen. Cindy gave this cartoon character that nods it's head using solar energy and Eeleen gave me a Funshine Care Bear! Thanks girls for the toys :) made my day *beams*

Take care you all and Merry Christmas!

~*~ Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow~*~

It's a pity it never snows in Singapore. I would sure love to have a white Christmas once in my life. To wake up by the fireplace, sip hot chocolate, build a snowman and skate on real ice. Sounds good doesn't it. That will be on my list of, "Things to do once in my lifetime"

Well it doesn't snow in Singapore, it sure does rains ALOT. Did someone say every single day? Yeah, it's like the wettest Christmas ever. I don't like rainy days, at least not everyday. I need the SUN. I need Vitamin E or is that D? Havent gotten a chance to go skating and swimming and just busk in the sun. Too much rain makes Susan a sleepy head too. So you gotta bring on the coffee to keep me awake at work.

Oh today celebrated Alexis's 25th Birthday. He's into quarter of the century! Had dinner at Al-Dente at the esplanade and then chocolate treats at Max Brenner, where I had an overdose of chocolate :P It was pretty fun, trying new stuffs and we had an enjoyable time, just relaxing and chilling. Miss those days when we're studying and had all the time in the world. Nostalgic mood..

Lord Of The Rings

Just watched the most anticipated Lord of the Rings at the cinemas yesterday. Caught the show at 10:15pm and only lasted for a good 3 and a half hours. So as you can see, I'm trying my best to keep awake at work now. Just a lunch, oh and log cake too, compliments from the ad agency :)

Yes yes more about the movie. Did anyone die? Yes some people died, but not many of the main characters. I hate it when there is no justice. Why do the bad guys, the orgs in this case, win so often? Isn't good supposed to prevail? Yeah I know they won ultimately, but after so many died in the war? This time round, the war scenes are longer and more spectacular with more weird cheracters from the orgs tribes and oh and a "ghost" tribe too! The ring was thrown into the lake of fire to where it righfully belongs and Aragornis crowned King! Legolas is looking as fine as he always does! I'm of the impression that the Hobbits are a gay bunch. Erm okay maybe not the best choice of word to use. But you know the way they look at each other, like Sam and Frodo and Merry and Pippins... If you watch it, you'll know what I mean :P

Alrighty, going to be 2 soon and it's back to work I go. Work's kinda busy now a days. But I'm happy :) coz I'm more into the real crux of the marketing aspect. So much to do, so much to learn and so much more to go.. Gotta keep cool under the pressure!

Survivor is finally over!

The 7th Season of Survivor is over and Sandra is proud winner of a million buckaroos. It's amazing how I'm still watching this stuff when most people have long given up on Survivor. The most memorable character of the show is probably Rupert, the Pirate from day one!And of course, the rat and scumbag Jon that everybody loves to hate. To think that he actually lied about his Grandmother's death to get sympathy votes :P Sheesh. But in this game to Outwit, Outlast and Outplay, I guess the puppet master has done well.

Another day of work again tomorrow. Just hope that I can leave on time and come home to get some rest. I feel tired... so to my bed I go. *Phoof*

Just returned from the church camp night service. Wasn't able to take leave to attend it as I'm still on my probation. But I'll make sure to mark it on my calendar and go for the one next year!

Tonight's message was about Passion for the Vision, where Pastor talked about the 4Ds to get closer to God.

1. Debasement
2. Discipline
3. Desire and
4. D.... (whopps I forgot the last one)

And the challenge is for us to surrender to God anything that hinders us from loving and serving Him unconditionally, unreservingly and wholeheartedly. I can easily think of some things that I need to lay at the feet of Jesus, to keep me focused on Him once again. It's so easy to assume that my life is okay with God. But what is your level of desire for God?

When you think that you have enough of God is when you really should start to desire more of Him, coz He will never beenough. As for myself, I do feel this way a lot of times, the self sufficiency part :( I really felt challenged to give more of myself, especially when it means sacrificing time, which I feel is so so precious to me now! But I ask myself again what is priority and which has eternal value? I'm sure you know what my answer will be :)

*~*~Christmas~*~*


Christmas trees and pressies are much delight.
But not more than meeting up with good friends and talking all through the night.
Time to lay aside all fights &
just admire the christmas lights

So much for my attempt at a poem :P Nice try

Christmas is coming...

I always love Christmas. The season of much giving and receiving. But I enjoy giving more coz isn't what the season is all about? Time to reflect and be thankful for ALL that I have in my life too. And of course, most thankful that God has been good to me and that I'm loving Him more.
Yeah perhaps I should think about what I should be thankful for? After all having a heart full of thankfulness and gratitude sure beats having one that's full of disgruntled feelings for everything. *wink* SO so so.. many things to be thankful for! Shall tell you all about it soon.

Gotta start to write Christmas cards too. I enjoy doing that alot. Well I dun get too excited getting cards that reads, Dear Susan... Merry Christmas and then From XXX. Like how personal is that. So fussy, but come on a tree was sacrificed for it so write more and make use of it! Haa Well at least you'll never get it from you. Just in case you do.. you know why.

Bad Hair Day

Just a day after I permed my hair and I'm having bad hair day. Horror of horrors, the sides of my hair is not curly anymore! How can this happen?? And it's supposed to last me till the Chinese New Year. I wanted to go back for a re-do today but the stylist is not round. Guess I'll have to wait till Saturday then.
My hair looks a little fried already, hope it doesn't kill my hair...
:(

A public holiday today. Got to sleep till 11am! I want more holidays!! Working is so tiring esp the year end mad rush at the office everyday. Today I shall just kick back and relax :) Enjoy the day too yeah.

Let me set the record straight, rebonded hair is blah now.
Hence this new look for me. If you haven't heard about ceramic perming, shame on you.
This is what makes girls look more like a lady. Took me great amount of guts to try it after witnessing some people's hair who gone haywired or end up looking like my grandmother.
It doesn't look too bad , does it?

Before


After

Feeling overworked

Today marks the day where I cross the 9pm hour to knock off at work. Feel so tired and drained, physically and mentally. Ha and yet I'm still up blogging at this hour. Need an outlet to destress. Yeah I really do need to destress. Well lets see a get away to the spa sounds splendid and absolutely fitting for a stressed out lady like me. Been having aches in the body, must be caused by the long hours in front of the computer.

Forsee that this is going to be a pretty long and busy week for me. I have work that piles up way up to the ceiling! It never ends. So looking forward to the weekends and of course the public holiday next Tuesday! I need to just sleep and sleep and sleep. Gotta learn more from Alexis, he's a koala bear, enjoys sleeping so much. Good thing for him, he gets to knock off on the dot. Lucky guy :)

In one of my crappy mood swings

Feel sick....Feel dejected......Feel lonely.....Feel bored.....Feel all alone.....Feel miserable..... Feel unloved......Feel ignored.....Feel unapprecaited......Feel unloved.....Feel like crying.....Feel like crap.....Feel like I dun belong here

But what I feel is not always what it seems

What am I even talking

Whines...

Sniffles...

Cough cough...

Touches forhead...

Grabs a tissue...

Pops a lozenges...

I'm sick. On MC today. Think the stress at work is getting to me. Felt a little sick on Friday already. Today when I woke up, I couldn't even talk. Lost my voice. My throat hurts to bad, decided to just sleep in and run to the doctor in the afternoon. Had a slight fever too accompanied with a flu and cough.

Just up from my nap. Feeling grogy in my head and weak in my body like a lump of jelly. My mind's not really functioning well, think I shall just stop here.

Whee, it's not everyday that I get to be home by 6pm! In fact work has been piling up and I dun have a chance to leave on time too. Resting at home now before I head down to roxy for FNL.

But still waiting for my parents to buy dinner. Been waiting for an hour? Did they go JB to buy?

Today at cell, we were just having a discussion on how God can use us at different stages of our lives to shape us, and define our character. So we talked about how when you're a student and when you're a working person, you experience God differently. When you're a student, your grades depends soley on yourself, like how hard or smart you study. If you mess up, you only have yourself to blame. Like being a student, you feel so self-sufficient. But when you start to work, you realize that no matter how capable you may be, sometimes you get unnoticed or have to work with people whom you may not like and still have to work with and for them. Your efforts alone will not always get you where you want to be. It's so much to do about the favour of God and men as well.

And for myself, I have definitely seen and experienced the favour and grace of God in my workplace. Like how nice and friendly my collegues are, my boss is a cool lady too. One of my collegues just told me that my boss commented that I'm a strong lady. Wonder what she meant, but I take it as a compliment :) And I found out that the HR VP really rooted for me to get a position as she felt I was down to earth and unlike many fresh graudates. I'll take that as a compliment. It's so humbling even as I share these, because I know it's not me, it really isn't. It's so evident that it's God at work here. Thank you God for everything that you have blessed me with.

My long due testimony :)

Hope you'll be blessed by this testimony of God's blessings!May you experiense His goodness too.

To live by God's economy is really so exciting and what better testimony of this than the awesome provision of a career in these bleak economic times. Having graduated this year in June, I was looking forward to be in a career of my dreams, to start my new phase of life as a young adult. After my exams I attended the youth camp and there I was greatly blessed and ministered to. In one particular service in the camp, one of the guest speakers prayed for me at the altar call and reminded me of 3 things; that God is my God of direction, salvation and provision. Though it may seem to be a very simple and general statement, it spoke volumes to me and at that time I was so certain that God will indeed be my provider for a job and that it will come to pass very soon.

However, fears of unemployment were also very real and I was trying to keep my spirits high and put my faith in God. Initially I wasn't too affected when I didn't get any responses from the resumes that I sent out. But as time passed by, every effort to send my resumes seemed so demoralizing and difficult. I began to question myself, my abilities, my qualifications, my self-worth. Was there anything wrong with me? Why wouldn't anyone employ me? Disappointment and rejection creeped in. Slowly the days of waiting turned to weeks and the weeks into months.

It was finally during my graduation in August that I found a part time job through my friend's recommendation. A little beam of hope was slowly restored. But the job was a far cry from what I really wanted to do and I continued to press on in my prayers for God to make a way, even though it seemed "impossible". After a few weeks, I left the job because I was very frustrated with it and I decided that I would take the time to really seek and pray about it. God really humbled me in the process and taught me that even though He is a God of impossibles, I shouldn't take it for granted that at the snap of His fingers He would just provide if we never take the effort to ask. My prayers in the past were superficial and self centered as I lived on my own strength and assumed I could depend on myself to find a job. I also spent time talking to the pastors, my peers who were working and as they shared, my perspective of what is a career changed as well. I began to pray that God would put me in a place where I would want to be and where I can be my best in all areas and of course to be Christ ambassador. In my prayers I candidly told God, "God if you open a door for me, make it so obvious that this is the job for me in terms of the job scope, the company, etc, because I may be slow to see it"

Finally after sending more than 50 resumes and going for 13 interviews over a period of 4 months, I finally got a job! I was so surprised at how smoothly the interview went, as I just had to go for one interview and I was selected! If there was anything I learnt, it was how to deal with rejection and keep having faith in God even when it seemed so hard and trying at times! The job offered to me is a position in a reputable bank. The job is something that I could only imagine to be in as I didn't have much relevant
experience even though I was very keen on. But Praise God that he knows my desires and He opened this door and He opened it so wide that I knew for sure that this is IT. I'm glad that I waited this long to get God's best for me and the waiting paid off. I know for a fact that it is God's loving grace towards me and nothing of my own merit that could land me in this job! Praise the Lord, for He cares for me and I know for sure that my life and my future is safe and secure in His hands.

Desperate Measures

The most wonderful part of my job is the two hours lunch breaks. But that comes at a hefty price, on my waistline that is. And my collegues have such hearty appetites that all feelings of guilt disappears as we indulge in our nasi lemak, hokkien mee, tom yan noodles, ba chor mee. You name it, we eat it. But alas, my rear is growing, a sure indication to either not eat so much or exercise.

Being the glutton that I am, I can't bear the thought of giving up all the glorious food and have decided to start exercising. I don't even remember where I had so much motivation to keep to my exercise regime in the early months of the year that I managed to lose 2 kg! I have so gotta lose weight now, else my pants are going to spilt!

I was thinking of waking up at 6am for morning jogs twice a week. Doesn't the thought of it make you wanna just curl back into bed and continue the snooze. So I may not be a morning person, but I'll try my best. Well but if that fails, I still have my saturday's in-line skatings to fall back on and make me feel less guilty about it. Let's see when I'll finally get down to it.

For those of you who frequent the fruity boutique Mango, you probably would know this disgusting truth already. Whoever said that mirrors don't lie havent been to Mango yet. They lie, in fact they tell darn beautiful lies! They make you appear seemingly slimmer and leaner, which by the way, I know is so NOT me. So when I saw myself in the mirror, I was staring hard at my reflection. It was kinda like seeing what I would look if I was a size or two smaller. Did I like what I saw? You bet, but then I dun like living in a lie so I stepped out and took a peep at myself in their full length mirror.

Now that's me, shorter and not so slim and lean :P.

But that made me wanna be a size smaller, so I'm on my quest to be slimmer. Was considering the thought of waking up early, say at 6 every morning to have a jog before I start the day. Doesn't that sound great. Catching the sun rise at the break of dawn, time alone, keeping fit, appreciating nature. K, maybe a bit too early for a late night person like me. Think I'll appreciate more beauty sleep! Hah. But hope is not lost, because I have decided to set aside my saturdays to go in-line skating religiously. Hopefully I'll have better luck with that. Anyone care to join me?

Sun Kissed

8:30am on a Sunday Morning and I'm on Sentosa island for my company's division team building day. My collegues told me how "lucky" I am cause this is the first time in years the company is organizing such an event. If I would have known I would have chosen to start work tomorrow instead! If the objective was team building, then sadly it hasn't been fulfilled. At least not the way that I see it, with people not attending and people sneaking off. After so many hours out in the sun, I've got an ugly tan! K I'm not complaining about the tan, but not when the tan is outlined by a t-shirt. Gotta find a way to get an even tan...

Hey isn't Friday a public holiday? Oh gosh I sure am looking forward to it. I sure could do with a break from work. Work's been okay, well not much for the first week, but it sure seems like more responsibilities will be coming my way. I'm mentally prepared for it so bring it on!!

Little Ms Independent

Today's the 2nd day that I'm working and everything's going pretty smoothly. Oh but I just have to say this, I'm going to be working 7 days a week this week! Coz it's company policy that all new comers don't get to enjoy the Saturdays off till they worked for one month. Maybe I should challenge that! Nah, then again maybe not. But normally I just have to work alt saturdays. As for Sunday, the division's having some department outing at Sentosa at 8:30am and my department is NOT exempted from going and attendance will be taken. Somehow this stirs up nostalgic feeling of being back to my primary secondary school days, doesn't it. By the way, the outing is only expected to end at 4:30pm :P

It's really such a small world too coz I just learnt that one of my cell member's dad works in UOB and so does my neighbour. And it was such a surprise coz I never knew that too. For my neighbour it was such coincidental that they offered me a lift to the MRT and so happen to ask about my work place that I know the lady actually works there! So we're neighbours and collegues! Starting to see how BIG my company is. Wahaha

Oh in case you're wondering what am I doing now, I'm working as a marcomm executive in UOB. Pretty neat and it doesn't seem as overwhelming as what my interviewers make it out to be. At least that's what I hear from my collegue. Then again maybe just not yet.

Alrighty better be off to bed now. *Zzzzzzz*

Went to the National Dental Center today to have my teeth checked and to go for a x-tray coz the other time, the dentist suspects that my wisdom teeth are buried under the gums. It turns out that they were under the gums, just as the dentist suspected and I have to undergo minor surgery to have them removed. All 4 of them! I'm going to faint! Made an appointment in mid December, but I think that it's a pretty bad timing considering I'm going to be part of the christmas choir and of course heaven forbid that I should miss the christmas turkey :)

Been shopping these few days to get me ready for work on monday. Knowing me, I'm not the corporate type, so I had to go shop for skirts, shoes, etc. I'm having al these mixed feeling about working. On one hand I'm really looking forward to it, and on the other hand wonder how I can take on the it. Well guess I shouldn't think too much about it. It's going to be a challenging job and boy do I need to learn proper time management! :P And be more organized as well. If my work desk ever looks like my table at home, I bet my collegues will roll their eyes at me. Ha wait till I explain to them the theory of "organized chaos"! Ha it's a new management term that people come up with to excuse their untidiness and I'm sure I will learn how to apply everyday thanks to all these management gurus!

I'm officially a working adult! Wow wee. Thanks to God who, in Eeleen's word, God likes to give us a little suprise from time to time to remind us who's in control. And He sure did when he allowed to get this job because it's way beyond my expectations. I'm glad that I waited till this long to get what God feels is nothing than the best for me. And of course thanks to all of you who have been praying for me, encouraging me to trust God, in His provision and of course to keep my eyes on Him.

This period of job search has been a long journey for me. After I have sent out almost a zillion resumes, well maybe not a zillion but surely more than 50 over the months from May to Oct. Attending 12 interviews, (if I didn't left out any), to be told sorry we found someone more suitable. But even though I have been disappointed time and time again, in the end I'm getting a job which I can only dream of geting maybe in 3,5 years time. Praise God! But as I look back, it's amazng how I'm being brought to this job. Lets see....

After I graduated, my dad insisted that I must go into insurance to take over his business when he retires. I was very reluctant about it and wanted nothing to do with it. But because I couldn't find a job, I thought I'll just do this to pass my time. And so the months pass... It was until I attended my graduation ceremony that I called up an agency that had a temp position opening did I started work. It's funny how after I started working at this job that the calls to interviews started pouring in. I had to take 2 days off almost every week to attend interviews. I decided that since I was not gaining anything from this job and also I wanted to have a clearer idea of what I wanted in my future career. After merely 3 weeks, I called it quits with ocbc, but the calls to attend interviews still poured in.

And by this time I also had some idea of what I wanted as a career and know where to work towards. God is just amazing, He knows that if he dun make it so plain to me where I should work, I may never know. So He made it possible that I got a job offer so good that I couldnt resist and would know for sure that this is IT! Work will start on Monday then I'll tell you just how exciting my job really is!

Got an sms early in the morning from Denise and this is what it reads,
"From tina, I heard Susan did well at today's interview".
Think I was still in a daze when I got it, so I didn't really read it till I woke up later. Hope she wasn't just being polite when she said that. So do I stand a chance, do I, do I? I wun know till a week or two later. So I'm gonna keep my fingers crossed till then. But the job seems like what i would enjoy and like, so yeah, I'm really keen on this.
Oh and I had a dream about this interview last night, that Denise told me that the interviewers were impressed with me! But the content of the interview seemed a little diff though from what I said. Coz in my dream, I actually quoted management theories and like big company names. Maybe they are all the things I wanted to say, but didn't get a chance to.

Had an interview today, but at least I didn't have to wait to know that I wasn't selected. So need not be in another waiting game.

Then again my current job' not too bad too :)

The first sign of wisdom

when your wisdom tooth starts to grow and when chewing becomes such a torture *Ouch* It hurts so much, and I'm getting the feeling that my teeth are grining on each other. But I cant help being wiser. (Innocent grin)

Oh I've got an interview tomorrow at UOB. Know I'm starting to see the little perks of connections. So remember this always, dun burn your bridges. Today you do them a favour, and tomorrow you may need their help. One good deed will beget another.
I'm looking forward to it. Pray for me okay. I'll keep you posted about how it went.

Going to start working again on Friday. It's a temporary part-time job where the work is fairly easy and the best thing is the enviornment's really casual, (think jeans and berms) which I really cant complain about. Oh of course unlike my previous temp job, I get to pick up new skills. But I'll know more on Friday when I start work.

I like the arrangement, coz I only work on 1,3,5, which is mon, wed and fri :) So the other days I'm free to go for my other interviews if I have any and also to just continue looking for a perm job. Oh and another thing that's good is that I can leave anytime I find anything better. Oh and work starts only at 9:30am!

Met up with my friends from SIM and had a nice time catching up. But I'm kinda zonked out now. So so sleepy. Looking forward to work.

Another New Week

Another week, another day. And not just any day, but a Monday.

Oh and I quit my job. Not just because it's boring. But I feel that this job is eating me on the inside. Or rather it's not the job but I feel so unprepared for work despite having spent 3 weeks in Raffles Place, the rat race seems so so real. In the past, I probably wun give a care, but the thought that now that I've graduated and am stepping into the corporate world, all these is pretty much what I have to deal with.

Life in Raffles Place made me feel like a shallow and hallow person. Everyday, of course minus the Saturdays and Sundays, I'm on the mrt with these huge crowd of people, who live life like a routine, just living from day to day trying to clear work on their in-trays. The ladies especially are dressed up to the nines, with their pointy witches shoes, and ironed pressed suits, guccci bags and their immaculate hair, nails, make up, etc. And as I travel from home to office, I always ask my myself, just what am I called to do? Not that I resent my job as a temp bank clerk, I really don't.

But I feel I needed to take a much needed break to really do a lot of reflection and to really give my future a more serious thought. And of course to do something which I havent done, and I should really take it more seriously, which is to pray and commit it to God. I know I should, but in all honesty, I think I could have done more. And of course it's not all, but also to HEAR from God.

So after all these is done, I pray that I will be more prepared in all areas to take on the challenges of my next phrase of life. I'm excited but also abit apprehensive... Just see how it all goes.

Snip snip

Went to trim my hair after work today. Had to drag myself to the salon literally coz I was already zonked out after work. Well just another day of writing envelopes again. Hopefully this part of my life will change very very soon.

Quick Beauty, (what a tacky name), promises haircut in 10 minutes for $10. Since all I wanted was a trim, what better place than this. But their promise of no waiting is far from the truth. Then again being a Singaporean guess I've already got quite acustomed to having to wait for anything and everything.

And now my hair looks neater and lesser too. Ha, but of course, DER! but I'm still waiting for my hair to grow longer, then I'll think of what i can do it to. Having long hair is so fun.

Good Morning, this is Susan with today's headlines..

Went for a voice audition with Mediacorp radio this morn. I was in the first batch with 19 other hopeful applicants. And just for today they wil be auditioning 3 batches, so that makes 60 applicants for today. Frankly, I don't think i'll make it considering how I can even make a mistake of "cheddar"! Haha private joke with eeleen :P

We were all ushered to a waiting area and given scripts which we had to read from. There were 5 short news and a list of words. Was hoping that among all the news I don't have to read the one with a foreign indian name, but alas, :( I had to read that and sorta smoke my way through. Anway I was a bundle of nerves and tripped over my words too. Disappointed with my performance, but then again I didn't really think that I'll get it too. But good experience, kinda fun too.

Have another interview on Friday. That's like my 2nd round of interview with them. Hopefully this one turns out better :)

updates! Been a long since i last blogged.

Tuesday: So I started work on Tuesday, a drag man. Was busying myself writing
1) Address of customer
2) Account number of customer
3) Name of customer
on envelopes and then sorting them according to alaphabetical order. Not even clerical duties man. Making me feel stupid. Oh and did I mention I'm locked in a "prison cell"? Coz the place where I'm seated is where all the customers info is filed away, so whenever anyone wants to retrieve the files they have to use a key and unlock the grill door and get past me. No lah I'm no doorkeeper, just that I'm locked away, away from everyone. And the most most horrible part is, they make you record every single thing you do. Like what you did, how long you took to complete the writing and how many envelopes you wrote on. It's so dumb, coz all i ever do is write the above on envelopes... *grumble grumble*

Wednesday: Took half day leave, (Yes on my 2nd day of work!) to go for an interview, but after seeing their office, which was situated in a industrial estate, I'm not so impressed and have 2nd thoughts about wanting to work there.

Thursday: Having a headache at work, coz there was such a commotion in my "prison cell", coz the people couldnt find their files. Made so much noise that disrupted what would have been a peaceful afternoon. @#&(*# Oh oh I had my Commercial General Insurance and guess what? I passed I passed! And the one who said i was stupid, Failed :P so dun you dare try to run me down with your words. I'm tougher that you think. *MUAHAHAHA* evil laughter. Very tired now. Been staying up the past night to study, I can sleep before 1am today.

Sweet dreams everyone

Feeling so absolutely pathetic. I went to the job agency today to find out my exact position and place of work. Turns out I'm merely a bank clerk! Like how excited can I get about working? And my one months pay after deducting CPF is not even a thousand.

Demoralized, jaded, broke. I dun even have a choice at what I want to work, simply coz there's not enough jobs out there. Just plenty of mindless jobs like data entry, admin, telemarkting etc. Like how motivating can that be to wake up early in the morning so do such work? And people get this misconception that graduates are fussy. Ha, yeah we should be SO happy to have graduated and then work at jobs where the challenge is to avoid paper cuts and where time is spent, doing filing, photocopying, etc!!

KK, at least I still have a ray of hope at a job I like. So I received a mail that I'm scheduled for a 2nd interview. Just gotta wait for their partner to come back from reservist. Oh God, please let me have this job...

Photos

Graduation Date: 29th August 2003
Location: SIM
Feeling: Proud and elated :)




Cheers!


5Ls Grace, Tina, Dion, Kelly and Susan


Dua Bah Bao sista. Girl power! Whee...


With Cindy, who can't wait to graduate now.


Alexis, the patient photographer of the day. Million thanks


and of course the 3 masketeers


How we waited for a day like this.

My Graduation

After spending the best of my youth in SIM for two years, I am finally going for my convocation tomorrow. It's where you wear a gown that seriously needs to be smaller and more fitting, coz it makes you look shapeless and of course the motar board, where in chinese is the "4 sided hat" to mark the end of your education, well at least mine.

Check back for the photos. :)

Quiz Time

Been a while since I did a quiz. Here goes....


Protector


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Me? Or so NOT me? I carry the weight of the world upon my shoulders? Wow, bu gan dang :)

It's awefully dark now even though it's just 5:55pm now. Noticed that it's been raining quite a abit these past few days. And there was this day last week where it really poured hard.

Did nothing much today. Woke up at 12! Yeah what a pig I am. But I was up doing some backdrop design for this Friday's FNL service! Had an FNL meeting with some of the committee members on sunday and I brought up that we had to take EXTREME measures to spice up the FNL services, else it would just be any other service. Well this week would be different, in terms of atmosphere. Wanna know how? Then come down and be blown away :)

Spent the whole of today making a scrapbook of a drive in movies that Alexis and I went for in Feb. Yeah it's kinda long right, like 6 months ago. I have plenty other photos but my creatvity are drained to make any more now. The most I can handle is maybe another one more.

Hatred

There's so much of hatred in my family. Honestly. So sick of it all. I really am so saddned by my family and sometimes to the point of disgust more than disappointment. Mom's forever nagging. And though some of you may find her cute and funny, if you live here, you'll know that's so not true on a daily basis. You'll hear endless whining, complaints, nagging, ranting, gossips, swearing and on and on and on. Yeah I grew up with all these being drilled into my head. How my mom hates my grandmother and even my dad and all the things that she suffered, put up, be bullied, blah blah blah. Basically all she does is say how good she is and how the whole world has mistreated her, especially after she married my dad, gave birth to us. And how even giving birth to a piece of char siew is better than us, coz at least she can eat it! How she is so pathetic and poor thing and all.Yeah big pity party... and after ALL these years, it's still the same!

I know that in the chinese saying, I'll probably get struck by lightening. But man I kid you not. It's so tiring living in this house, which is not even a home. Hearing all the quarrels, witnessing al the endless fights which are like so DER! Oh well, that should give you some idea as to why I never ever want to work in the same line as my dad. Anything that is even remotely associated with them makes me so sick.

Think I have said enough. So if I ever ever sound like my mom, God forbid! Please stop me and let me know. Still have an insurance to take on saturday and in the morning! Why must I even do all these? Like I bloody give a care!

What a small, small world

Learnt from Joanne some months ago that one of her friend from cell is also studying in SIM in my class. So that's how I got to know Roxanne. But we never got beyond the Hi and Byes. Well recently I got her added on my icq list and have been talking to her. So interesting how this world is so small eh. Then again Singapore is already so small! Heh. And she was from Singapore Poly too, but never see her around before. Well she did accounting, so maybe that explains.

Had a job offer today for a call center position. But as usual lah, have to work shifts, work weekends and public hoildays. Rejected the offer coz if I took it up means I have to let go of my cell group. Quite at a lost for my cell too. Hope that by changing it to a saturday it will make a difference and things will get better.. well in some way at least. It's not easy holding the fort alone. Pray that God will grant me extra strength and wisdom to do it. Not for my glory, but ALL for YOU!

Fishy buziness

Where's the fish? It's this ad firm that I went for an interview at. Apparently they are known by two entirely different names, and the nature of their business sems fishy too. On their first interview, the interviewer was quoting big clients that they worked with before and how much millions the company has been earning, maybe to entice the guilable to go "WAH". They called me up for a 2nd interview where I'm supposed to be attached to this sales and marketing executive to do field work and learn from him/her, which I don't think even sounds like an interveiw! So heck, I postponed it as I have to take my insurance exams, which cost $104! So better go take, at least fail also proved that I did tried. But then on second thoughts, I don't even think I wanna go for the 2nd interview at all. Sounds like a fly by night company. You know the kind, here today, gone tomorrow kind, with not a trace in sight. Yeah... When I apply for jobs better make sure it's not some funny companies like that.

Let's just say had similar bad experience of companies who advertised for one thing but made you do something which is entirely not to your expectations. And when I say out of expectations, like how about applying for receptionist job but then attach you to two sales guys and brings you to world trade center's office and sells cheapo stuffs door to door and insist this is training on the job! Gimme a break. Enuff of such crap :P

More Photos

Graduation
Collected the graduation gowns on the 8th and took some shots with Dion, Kelly and Alexis.












I'll always cherish the friendships with you....

Photos

Taken at Cineleisure, after lunch

Me, Joy, Cindy


The Dua Bah Cai Bao clan


With Cindy

At mendy's birthday

With Eeleen

==Kawaii==

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You're the super-slacker!!
Homework?
What's that? Studying? Not in your vocabulary.
You hardly study and almost never do your work
and yet, by some divine intervention, you're
still surviving. And you come to school so un-
often, your teachers have pratically forgotten
that you even exist. Go, you slacker, you!!


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Happy 38th Birthday Singapore!

Wow, so proud to be a Singaporean despite my complaints about the rising costs of living and why i havent gotten a job in these downtimes and countless other rants about this and that, I'm still proud to be a true blue, erm or it is true red Singaporean? In fact I was dressed in red today as well :)

Caught the NDP on telly today and wow it was so exciting! Had break dancing, kumar doing the indian dance, graffiti, people clapping with spatulas, even though that may seem silly, heh. But it was a true Singapore National Day sight, where you get people from differne races, religion, and walks of life to celebrate the journey that Singapore has taken in reaching yet another birthday! There was a pre-recorded segment of PM Goh saying, " This is home, because this is where my family and friends are. This is home, because we built it together..." Feels so awww.. Yes! This is HOME! Singapore, my homeland.


I LOVE SINGAPORE!


One United People

Verse one
One Singapore
One people strong and free
With one heart, one voice
We make our history
We are a rainbow of a thousand colours
Lighting up the sky
We share the Singapore heartbeat
Together you and I

Chorus
One Singapore
One nation strong and free
A thousand differnt voices
Sing in harmony
We will stand together
Together hand in hand
As one united people
For Singapore, my homeland

Verse two
My Singapore
Our isalnd in the sun
This is my homeland
Its where my strength is from
A rainbow of a thousand colours
Lighting up the sky
We build a brighter future
Together you and I
We are

Chorus

Blast!

Wow, FNL was sucha BlasT! WHheeeeee! Had so much fun, though I have to admit I'm kinda zonked out now too. Despite all that was done, nothing was a greater success than seeing so many people turning up. Had multi-media presentations, super hero games, sharing of vision and who can forget the Super Long sandwhich!

Oh just in case, you havent had a clue, FNL stands for Friday Night Live! It's a bi-weekly youth service for youths and young adults. For pple just like ME! Where there is loud, cool, and happening fun and fellowship and of course learning of God's Word. Totally awesome stuffs! FNL Rocks :)

I've been...

..:Tuesday:..
Drama at home
Wrote letter to dad
Stay over at Eeleen's place
Apple Struddle
Pictionary & charade
So exhausted from all the draing, acting and laughing

..:Wednesday:..
Lunch at West Mall
Popped by IMM
Dinner, Mac at East Coast

..:Thursday:..
Final touch up to FNL video
FNL games
Moody
Cried
Dinner at Swensons with Alexis frens

..:Friday:..
Collecting grad gown
Photo taking session around town
FNL launch party

Retail Theraphy





The women love it, the men hate it! Went shopping and bought this pendant from Perlini's silver. Actually I think it can pass off as Tiffany's :)

Me and You



Feeling so shameless thinking we're the most adorable couple around. *Muahahha* But who cares, READ THE DISCLAIMER: the webmistress says whatever and posts watever she fancys. So there! I feel that blogs with photos add more personality and more life to mere words. Yeah as they say a picture speaks a thousand words. So what does this picture says?

Since I know where I can upload my photos, shall included more photos from now on. I'm going shutter happy :)

Way to go ger

I got a distinction for my insurance exams :) Oh thank God. It wasn't a very hard paper, but a distinction. Wheee and my dad only got a pass. I can tell he's jealous. Muahaha

Still not feeling better, been coughing my lungs out I tell you. Can hardly talk now too. Hurts way too much. No fried food, no spicy food, no oily food, How do I survive?

On another note, I think people should start having their personal blogs as well. S that we can have a peek into their lives and know them on a deeper level. Haha did I say deeper level? K maybe not ALL that deep. But I do find reading other's blog very interesting. Their inner thoughts or just nonsense ramblings. It's your freedom to say what you wanna ;) Go go, get a blog..

More sick

Argh.. now my sore throat has developed into a flu. Feel so sick :( Hate the feeling of being sick. What a sick feeling to be sick! #*^$@ And I still have to study for my exams, which is just a day away. Hardly had a good night's rest. Keep waking up to go to the loo, thanks to the gallons of water I downed to keep my throat moisturised or watever. Then I started to sneeze and ta tah, I caught the flu bug. Sheesh...

Ahhh I feel so sick now. Head spinning, nose dripping. Just wanna dso nothing but sleep the day away.

Cause and Effect

After supper at Jalan Kayu on Monday, where I had chesse prata, egg prata and 2 kosong prata and not forgetting an iced milo with Alexis, I'm down with a terrible + horrible + painful sore throat. It's hurts so so so bad. Can feel like it's inflamed already :( Regretted being such a glutton. Now I have to drink and eat all sorts of stuffs, including liquid chlorophyll, which did little for my sore throat, but worked wonders for my bowel movements! Went to the toilet to shi* like 3 times today!

Does anyone have any miracle medicine for my sore throat? Yah and do pray for me too... I feel so pitiful now. OoooOOwwwWWWWW...

Does that sound like me?

Koh, your hemispheric dominance is equally divided between left and right brain, while you show a moderate preference for auditory versus visual learning, signs of a balanced and flexible person.

Your balance gives you the enviable capacity to be verbal and literate while retaining a certain "flair" and individuality. You are logical and compliant but only to a degree. You are organized without being compulsive, goal-directed without being driven, and a "thinking" individual without being excessively so.

The one problem you might have is that your learning might not be as efficient as you would like. At times you will work from the specific to the general, while at other times you'll work from the general to the specific. Sometimes you will be logical in your approach while at other times random. Since you cannot always control the choice, you may experience frustrations not normally felt by persons with a more defined and directed learning style.

You may also minimally experience conflicts associated with auditory processing. You will be systematic and sequential in your processing of information, you will most often focus on a single dimension of the problem or material, and you will be more reflective, i.e., "taking the data in" as opposed to "devouring" it.

Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself - and of others - while maintaining an "openness" which is redeeming. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity is not in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, the more obvious and the more functional.

Disappointments

Had an overnight youth leaders meeting with youth pastor and the other youth cell leaders. It was a fruitful meeting, despite leaving with some issues unsettled. But overall it was a good time of sharing and I left feeling encouraged and blessed by everyone's story.

I guess there are so many times and so many things that we wished were different, and we can operate in an optimum situation. But as we know in life, nothing is a bed of roses, and smooth sailing all the way. Even if things are perfect, we may be the imperfect one to ruin the perfectness of everything. And like I always believe, Change will be the only constant. We will always have to be willing to move along with changes and adapt and be flexible.

In this journey of life, we may be thrown into situations where we feel we really have to bite our teeth to get by and it's often the journey that requires us to keep our eyes fix on God, even though the destination is clear. And I do know that at the end, ultimately, God will be there at the finishing line to receive me.

There's so so much that I can say but in it all I just wanna say that I have never regretted serving God in the youth ministry. Though there have been many disappointing moments, many times when you feel misunderstood even, and feel rejected by the same people you are trying to reach, but the rewards of seeing lives transfromed, lives being surrendered to God, youths serving and passionate about God, that is enough. And I will always remind myself that, it's ALL for God, for Him alone and it's never for my own glory.

Wish

my dad would stop bugging me... At least give me some credit for what I am sacrificing.
Sigh, dun mean to sound this ... I dun even know what? Bummed? Clueless, confused, conflicted.

Life, am I living my own life or the life you want me too?

The weekend came and gone

Sat::. Recording of FNL trailer (strongly advise you not to watch it!If you do, don't laugh)
Lunch at Roxy, yummy chicken chop
Bought Mendy's 21st birthday present at parkway
Watched drama at Cornerstone church.
Christmas recruitment power point slides

Sun::. Church as usual
Attended Mendy's birthday party
Late afternoon nap
KFC dinner at compasspoint

What's up?

I don't have anything to say today. Been a boring day trying to study for my insurance papers. The first paper is on the 21st of July then the next on the 31st. Think I may need to register for the third paper soon, because the waiting list can end up pretty long.

Studying for the paper is kinda boring and I don't even know how much of it do I really remember.... I don't even know if I'll look forward to my new career. I'm trying to remain positive too. But it can still be pretty hard to keep your chin up when there's so much happening.

"Have faith in me, have faith in me, have faith..."

Character

What do you stand for? What are your beliefs? What are you passionate about? Who are the people around you? What thoughts do you entertain? They all shape your character.
I don't deny that at times I have failed to mould my character with the wrong actions and choices. It's important to know what you stand for, or you'll just fall for anything. Stand firm and not waver in your beliefs. But if need be, open your heart and be receptive to what others have to say. You never know how you can be a model for others and be that inspiration to the people around you. What about you, do you want rub off in others?
What have I rubbed off in those around me.......

My Fear Factor

Phobias. What's yours

..:: My List ::..

1) Achluophobia/Myctophobia- Fear of darkness.
2) Clithrophobia or Cleithrophobia- Fear of being enclosed.
3) Defecaloesiophobia- Fear of painful bowels movements.
4) Hormephobia- Fear of shock
5) Obesophobia/Pocrescophobia- Fear of gaining weight.
6) Ochlophobia- Fear of crowds or mobs
7) Ponophobia- Fear of overworking or of pain.
8) Prickyphobia- Fear of durians

What can I say? Susan is a scardy cat.

Fatty Day

Weigh myself today and dun like what I see... *sulks* fatty fatty day. Where did the weight come from? Let me see, there was the laksa, vanilla coke, oh and all the fast food, KFC, MOS buger, LJS. Gotta put a stop to this. Alexis better not suggest to go eat fast food or he'll sabo my diet.

Anyway I was at Caltex House today for a roadshow and I really gotta share this. You know I always got this idea that roadshows are so hard where people are never interested to stop and hear you out. But today I was quite surprise that not just one but three people actually approached me. They had some queries about their existing policies and though they may not have bought any insurance but they sure made my day. My attempt to talk to people also didn't seem too bad. I guess it's not that bad after all. *grins*

Shutterbug at Work

Been pretty interested in photography on a more serious level and have been experimenting more with alexis digi cam. His digi cam is such a worthwhile investment :) We have had many precious memories in all the photos we have taken, where each picture speaks a story that is shared by us.

If you have shutter bug interest, check this out. It's the 26 things, International Photographic Scavanger Hunt. I'm giving it a go. Exciting and fun.

Reflections of a sunday afternoon


EspLanaDe * Pedals & Pipes * Grand Concert Hall * Shutter BuG at work * Bridge to Merlion * reflections in the glass of you and me * Gross piece of ArT *Photos *SunTec CiTY* BooK FaiR * Rumble in the tummy * KFC treat from Alexis* Yummy* VaniLLa coKe * SiLLy FaCe* enJOYable Time spent with aLeXIS*

Pain pain pain

Went skating at East Coast with Alexis, Karen, Pam and their fren, Soon Guan if i remember correctly about the name. not too many people at that time. lesser people=lesser traffic= less chances of accidents. For those who go to East Coast on Sundays will so know what I'm talking about. It becomes mentally tiring to even try to skate, coz you must look out for bikers, kids, skaters, pedestrains who think they own the roads, people who dun look where they're walking, huge group of people walking in a straight line right across the paths, ect.

After that had FNL meeting back to Roxy where I stepped on a staple. Hurts so bad. Good thing the sole of the feet are usually very thick! Nevertheless kept me awwing and owwing for quite a while. During the meeting was having a headache and whipped out my axe oil medicated oil (yah I know so auntie). But that didn't really do the trick. After the meeting I went to look for Alexis at Parkway who developed some photos (will post them later). By then the headache was really killing me :( Bought a new tiger balm medicated balm (yah yah auntie in action) and then headed home to rest.

It's days like today when my headaches are SO SO bad, that I begin to suspect if I have brain tumour or something. Honest! Coz the pain is no ordinary pain. Well but I do feel better after I had my dinner. It's funny but food does wonders when I feel sick or unwell.

Not feeling well

So not feeling well today. Had diahorrea and vomitted until there was nothing more to throw up except water. Sourish after taste in my mouth which really is *yucks* Took my temperature, 37.5C. That is okay right? Better be. Dun wanna go work tomorrow. Oh no I feel like throwing up again.....

Rantssssssss

I'm in one of those everything is just so bad that I just wanna disappear from the fact of the earth mood. Feel like screaming, feel like shouting, feel like crying. Why God, why must I have such a father? I really can't stand how he does things. I really cant. And now I have to work for him. It's totally unbearable. ARGHHHHH Hopefully I dun have to put up with his nonsense for long. No one and I mean absolutely nobody can understand how he thinks and act in such a way. It's unbelievable the stuffs he does.. *rolls eyes*

A day at work

Work started for me this week. Dread. But then again I gotta have a more positive attitude now that I have made up my mind to do it. Just gotta give my best shot. Actually now that I think about it, it's not ALL that bad. Things could work out for the better in future. Thanks to all of you who have been a listening ear to my grumblings and complaints. *hugs*

So what's work like for me? Firstly, my biggest complaint, no personal computer, also no internet. But if you consider the line I'm in, you dun really need to stay in the office, so not much need for all these. Another good thing is that, my aunt also works in the same office so there's at least someone else besides my dad to work with. Oh and the hours are flexible :) no 9-5 job, but this also means I may have to work beyond 5 and even the weekends.

But I guess working life will not be the same once I get my license to sell insurance. Life will no longer be this slack, official end of bumming life.

I'm Psalms


You are Psalms.


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friday five

1. Is your hair naturally curly, wavy, or straight? Long or short? Naturally wavy that is a little past my shoulders now.

2. How has your hair changed over your lifetime? I've had it long, short, wavy, straight.

3. How do your normally wear your hair? When I'm at home, it's just tied back in a bun. When I'm out, it can be in a or two ny tails, in plaits, let down, etc.

4. If you could change your hair this minute, what would it look like? Less fizzy looking, less drying, more length.

5. Ever had a hair disaster? What happened? Yes! Some 5, 6 years ago where I went for a haircut and the hairdresser changed my parting after cutting my hair and insisted that I have to perm my hair to make it look balanced. Man I wa so mad, and the worse part, it looked horrible!

Attempt at Photoshop

Today Alexis came over to my place and taught me the basics of photoshop after my failed attempt to learn it on my own. I always find it hard if not impossible to actually learn something like photoshop from books. What I can learn from a simple demo would probably take like an hour to actually read it, understand it and do it. I am quite pleased with the end results. Though it's not very nice but it's not bad for a beginner. I realized that the possibilities of using Photoshop is endless. Then again I only know so little now ;P Borrowed some books from the library today and hope to be more patient to learn something out of there so that I can explore and try out on my own.

Havent been to town for a while and guess what, the Zoo is in town. And by that I mean quite literally. If you take a walk down to the Orchard Mrt, at the area where maids gather on Sundays, you'll see the zoo and the bird park. There are miniature horese, sheeps, ducks, chickens, birds, snakes and others there. Think there some performances by some of the birds and animals too. For those of you who miss the zoo and bird park, hop down to Orchard and get into the wild life!

Direction

God is indeed my God of direction. In the camp, this is one aspect that Pastor Daniel prayed for me about as I knelt at the altar. By the way, in case you didn't know, Pastor Daniel was a guest speaker of the youth retreat during the night services. On the last night, he prayed that I'll receive a fresh anointing and a fresh work of the Holy Spirit in my life. He also reminded me that God is my God of salvation, of provision and direction. As simple and as general as this may sound, but it spoke volumes to me and really was so timely in what I am and was about to go through.

Just a day after the camp, my dad told me that I had to go into insurance due to some unforseen circumstances. The direction seemed to be the only way out for me and it needed fast actions. For those of you who know me, I always said that going into insurance was probably the last thing that I would ever do in my life. But I had to eat my words now. Initially when my dad told me all these, I was screamng in my head, "NO, no no no! God deliver me!" But as I cried on my bed, God's peace slowly filled my heart and my only prayer was, " God, Your will be done. I place my faith in You." And so it was done. But the whole day I was still struggling to accept the fact. This was when Mendy'sprophecy spoke so much reassurance from God, to have faith in Him.

After I shared this with Alexis and Pastor Jo, it seems like this might not be such a bad thing after all. So all I know now is that though the future seems so uncertain and I'm still scared, God is here with me and He'll guide me each and every step of the way. My future is secure in the Lord's hands. Do keep me in prayer as my family is going through a difficult time. God bless you for your prayers.

What dreams mean

If there is one thing about my sleeping patterns, it's that I dream a lot. Yes and I do remember most of them too. Some vaguely, some in details. A particular dream I had about a month ago, was about me walking along a field with my pastor and he asked me this question, "What if God really spoke to me?" I remembered I replied that I'll listen and obey to what God said. Then I went on to explain about how I have pre-conceived ideas of how God should speak to me and one of them is that God should speak in an audible voice. But I added that God doesnt speak like this anymore. But guess what...

One significant thing that took place during the camp was that God really spoke to me. And I mean in an audible voice, through Mandy. When I read back about my dream entry in my journal, it really blew my mind. Because the way God spoke to me really was out of my pre-concevied notions. Like probably I would think that God would use some pastor or appointed minister and all, but God used Mandy. And when God can use a person like Mandy, I'm really humbled and in reverant awe by that. I never knew that my dreams could mean anything since I have had a lot of dreams that involves me running away from people who wants to attack and kill me. (how bizzare, I know!)

But to re-read my dream entry about the question of "What if God really speaks"... That's mind blowing. It's just one of those mind blowing experience that I have with God. God just never fails to amaze me and keep me on my toes too ;) If you're thinking God is not real, I don't know what is anymore. God never felt more real to me in this camp. I'm just so thankful that I was able to go for it. The timing for this camp is really by divine appointment.

Back

Back from the youth retreat.

Feeling tired in the body,
refreshed in the spirit,
touched in the heart and
renewed in the mind.

More to share when the tired body comes back with some rest.

In camp

Faith@work.comISSION camp from the 16th-19th june. I'll be back to tell you ALL about it.

New Idea for Games

Phew, just cleaned the fans in my house. The ceiling fan in the hall and the standing fan in my room. The ceiling fan wasn't so much of a toughie, but the one in my room was a pretty tricky one. Took me about half an hour. First I had to dismantle the fan, then wipe the blades and then the mental cover. Then the hardest part was trying to get everything back. Coz instead of the normal 'clips' that is used to secure the metal cover, my fan is so complicated. You have the a metal cover and a plastic ring that is used to join both the metal covers together. CoNfuSeD?

Oh well to cut the story short, it was so tricky that I told me sister that maybe for team games, I should just give them some equipment that Francis needs to be cleaned and make them clean and assemble it together, so it fulfills the team spirit criteria and also gives the much needed equipment a good clean! Haha. But not a god idea if they take it all apart and dun have a clue how to assemble it back! Just a rubbish though of the day!

Finding nemo
nemo here, nemo there, nemo everywhere. I'm gonna watch it soon ;) heard from so many people that it's a real good show.



Girls in Pink
Grace, Tina and Me. What a coincidence, which was a real surprise. If Kelly also wore pink then Ms Dion would surely faint! Overdose of pink.

I'm a


Fun and spunky, you link, there for you are! This
is all fun and games, and you do what you
damned well please!


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There's always something new to learn

Walked to the IT section in the library and borrowed two book that I'm unlikly to borrow. One's Teach yourself visually excel, and the other Teach yourself visually Photoshop. Okay so there're not new stuffs. But I felt like I needed to 'upgrade' my knowledge on these two, as I think they're important and useful and fun. Okay, fun for photoshop but for excel.. no idea how that can ever be fun.

Amongst the others stuffs I borrowed are, health magazine, scrapbooking magazine, craft books, layout book and an Idiot's guide of how to throw a great party. So now you know me a little better. Wanted to pick up a girly, nonsense novel to read too but I figured I wouln't have time to read so many stuffs. And more over I dun have the patience to read thru novels now. Wanna pick up new stuffs now, now that I have all the time in the world ;) or do something with my hands. Like make a scrapbook or something. It will be lotsa fun.

The Waiting Game

After like weeks of waiting, finally a job agency called me up today and brought me some good news. The lady, forgot her name, told me there's a contract position for customer service over at Singtel for 6 months. She thought I'll be suitable for it since I've worked in Starhub! Haha maybe they hope I can tell them what Starhub is up to. So anyway, the reason why I took up this offer is cause I need the money, it's 5 days and unlike normal call centre working schedule, I only need to work office hours since it's handling in bound calls. I like what I hear so I told her yeah go ahead and forward my resume to Singtel. Hope to hear from them real soon.

Which means my bummer life is coming to and end.. gotta do all the things I wanna do while I can. First thing tomorrow, go swim and get baked in the sun!

Lousy Food

Alexis is not a believer that there is such thing as lousy or bad or yucky food. Take today for instance, I felt like eating rice and so ordered Nasi Goreng. When it was delivered to my table I got a shock.

Firstly, it was orange like it's supposed to be, and then the worst part, there was nothing in it, except bits of egg and it's really like bits of it, no kidding & ikan billis. Alexis thought it least it's just 2 bucks. But I dun care about paying more for decent food. I didn't pay $2 just to eat fried rice with nothing! Got me so irrated, especially when I felt like eating something with rice and not JUST rice. Felt so cheater and spoilt my mood. Alexis don't get it of how eating lousy food can upset my mood. Well at least he gave me pieces of his chicken to pacify me. But still darn! We just dun see eye on eye on food issue.....

Food is for pleasure and not mere survival. Of course it matters to me. Anyone care to disagree.

You think too highly of me

Before my mama packed off and went to Malaysia for a couple of days with my dad, she actually told me and my sister that there's food in the fridge if we want to cook anything and not to touch her washing machine. What makes her think we will even cook or better still know how to operate the washing machine of hers. It's a joke. I've been eating out every single day and it's not that bad, when you have chicken rice, KFC, carrot cake and oh yes prata. But too bad the prata turned out to be such a disappointment it killed whatever craving I had for it. Think the best place to go for prata is still Jalan Kayu.

I better pack my room tomorrow or else my mama ain't gonna be too happy to see the mess we made of the house!

Aching Body

Friday going night skating with Alexis and his skate friends. In view of the grueling, tedious and someone say impossible destinations, decided to go train up before I embark on this journey. So I went skating with Alexis today and skated from Bedok Jetty to Fort Road and to National Stadium and back to Bedok Jetty. This is possibly the longest distance I have ever skated. And yes, I did make it back in one piece hence qualifying me to skate with the pros. Or so I think...

Thinking about the distance does seems intimidating
Pasir Ris -> East Coast -> Fort Road -> National Stadium -> Suntec -> Orchard
Will Susan be able to make it. Well folks to know the outcome, stay tuned to the life telecast on Friday night live. You dun want to be caught left out on first Episode of the Amazing Race on wheels.

What's for lunch

Mom: What do you want for lunch, Mathew is on the phone, he can buy back.
Me: What do they have there?
Mom: Chicken rice. You want?
Me: Dun want. What else?
Mom: (talks to brother) What else do they have there? (Talks to me) What do you want?
Me: Carrot cake.
Mom: Buy for jie jie carrot cake. (talks to me) Want black or white?
Me: White.
Mom: White carrot cake. (talks to brother) They don't have carrot cake. Buy something else can?
Me: Like?
Mom: Chicken rice?
Me: I DUN WANT chicken rice.
Joy: I want gou tiao! (shouts from the room)
Mom: Joy wants fishball goutiao. You also okay, or you want chicken rice?
Me: Yah yah gou tiao. And I dun want chicken rice. *Pengz*

This happens alot. Mom will insist I should eat certain food when she buys back. Besides chicken rice, she always recommends that I eat Hokkien Mee. But that's Joy's favourite, not mine! Why cant I choose what I wanna eat? If I dun wanna eat chicken rice, I wun. If I dun wanna eat Hokkien Mee, then I wun. I'm not particulary fussy about food. I just dun like her dictating me what to eat. That includes buy, wear, look, etc.. ARGH

CLAY AIKEN

So sad he didn't win :( why didn't America vote for Clay? He sang so so good. But like what the others said it probably boils down to popularity. And I noticed Clay doesn't appeal to the guys as much as Ruben. And can you imagine the difference between them was like 0.2%!!!!! A mere 1300+ votes. And the greatest joke? Last year's winner Kelly won Justin by 16%! Hahaha. Yah I really dun like Justin. He and his curly hair! Eeeeee

Clay, you're still a winner! Yeah you've got SIngapore fans too!! Me and Joy.. Oh and Denise too.

And the 2nd American Idol is..

Results are going to be out soon. Well actually they are already out, but dun wanna post a spoiler. There's gonna be great group performances too.

Oh mine, Clay's bridge over troubled waters is SO SO good!!!

Woo Wee

Radio Game Queen at work again! This is so fun and exciting. Once again reaffirms my belief that listening to radio pays.. literally. Perfect 10 has this game called cash buzz and so far I have won $150. Not a lot, but the feeling of winning is such an adrenaline! Haha... go play too. Maybe just maybe.... If I win enough I dun have to look for a job.

Yeah dream on..LOL

Time to Play This-or-That-Tuesday

1. Large or small family? I'll say medium sized. All five of us.
2. Potato chips or pretzels? Pretzels gets my vote. I like nachos too, maybe chips too and chocolate bar..and oh yes pocky and..
3. House or apartment? Apartment that comes with BBQ, swimming pool, gym, tennis court, playground. everything!
4. Zebras or giraffes? none
5. Candles or potpourri? I prefer aromatheraphy... relaxing
6. Flowers or trees? Flowers!
7. Right or left-handed? Right, the more creative type ;)
8. Model trains or dolls/stuffed animals? stuff toys, Awwwww..
9. Comedy or drama? Comedy, then again I also like action, romance.. just not horror!

It's getting HOT in here

Wow, is it just me? But do you feel the HEAT wave? I am right now pespiring away even though the fan is on. it's so so so HOT. Makes me wanna just hide in my air-con room all day.

Been bumming around for the past fews days after my exams. I feel liberated from studying. No more exams, ever I hope... Oh yes, I got a reply from a company to attend an interview session this monday. Although I dun suppose this is the job, but the interview will get me more geared up for my career search. It feels so wierd, like hey I'm all grown up and have to join the corporate world now. sings * I dun wanna grow up, I'm a Toys R us Kid* Haha Oh I wish. GROW UP SUSAN. But honestly I dun feel a day older than 20!

If only I had half her coolness....

Cowger




This one's for you, Cindy Ow
Hee Hee, remember?? *Bang Bang*

and now it's just down to Clay and Ruben. Kim's going back. But you know what she's still great!

OHMYGOSH

And then there was 3. Yes, American Idol is finally down to 3, Kim Locke, Ruben Studder and Clay Aiken. Oh my gosh the competition is really heating up. I want them ALL to win. I'll update on the results later. Dun worry, Cindy you are not missing out anything ;)

It's finished

My exams are finally over and done with! Unspeakable happiness and relief and as I left the exams hall for the last time. No more mugging, no more lectures, no more school.. I'll miss school school days, I mean. Looking back on these two years studying, I guess I have learnt alot, besides stuffs like Organizations are complex adaptive system, BP is a function of capital mobility and all.....( like what greek are you talking about, Susan?) but honestly, these two years have been a very fulfilling year for me. Of course, dear frienships with my 5L gang and especially Kelly and Dion. I'll always remember the melbourne trip and all the silly, funny and irrating things that happened.

For Cindy: Hey dun worry about missing the reality shows coz I'll keep you updated! American idol later in the night and You know what The Amazing Race is starting again. Heard there's a married gay couple! Should be interesting to watch. Will drop you a mail soon now that my exams are over. Glad to hear that work is fun and exciting and challenging, unlike joy's. Poor her. Enjoy yourself girl.

Season Finale of SUrViVOR!

It finally ended and guess who walked away with that one million dollars? Surprise surprsie, Jenna, the 21 year old (yes, she's the youngest player in all the past seasons and youngest to win the title of being sole survivor. And a swimsuit model too! How shocked am I? Very.. I thought that psychotic Matthew would win! Haha... Really too bad for him, But way to go too Jeanna.

Finally it's down to my last paper tomorrow, then it's time to kick back and relax. Sleep in late, wake up late, laze, relax and rot away... Haha. Being true to the bummer sprirt in me! I'm so proud of myself.

How much can you take?

After my initial pathetic ranting about having no dinner, heaven heard the pleas of my rumbling tummy and sent my parents to get me dinner. After downing 2 gou tei and a bowl of seafood soup, I feel so overwhelmed by all the food. *stuffed* I'm sure it's also because of my nacho's indulgence in the afternoon that led to this over-capacity to somewhere in my body now.

Chacho's

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I am hungry and I only have coffee and Chacho's...they don't taste that great after all...

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Where's everybody in the house? All out, except for me, who needs to study for my exams. What a bummer! I suspect I'm missing out on some good decent food.

She's gone...

Dear Ms Cindy Ow, or more affectionately known as Tau3 or Ms cow has packed her bag and left for the land of the rising sun, yeah Japan. I sure will miss you these two months. But me and joy will keep the Bao spirit alive while you are gone yeah. Like what Joy says, show the samurias what you're capable of! Go kick some butts. Haha. Send my love to Erika when you're there and do update your blog and send love emails ;) Must have self control ah, dun buy the whole of Japan home to Singapore!

I cant resist

The charm of American Idol that is. Despite having a paper tomorrow, I just had to watch American Idol and of course what makes it good was having to bid Joshua good bye. But the last part was kinda touching, with him carrying his baby girl to sing his last song. I suspect Ryan doesn't like Joshua, because when it was time to say the results he just said Joshua you are out and Kimberly you are safe, with such a non chalent look on his face. Not much emotions from the crowd too. Except his wifey of course who was tearing away.

But after watching American Idol for weeks, I feel kinda attached to them. Seeing them sing week after week, changing of image, some starting to dance more like Clay. Now that it's down to the final 3, it will be hard. My predictions, Kim's gonna go next week and Clay's so gonna win this... Then again either I support both Clay and Ruben.

Alright, enuff said, gotta head back to my notes. For those who care, I'm having my papers tomorrow (9th), Monday (12th) and Wednesday(14th), Please keep me in prayers, esp for my paper on the 14th. Been warned that it's not going to be easy, it's my finance paper by the way. Yeah and after 2 years, I still think I made the wrong choice to major in Finance. Oh well..

Miss independent

By the winner of last year's American Idol, Ms Kelly Clarkson. This is in her new second album. Way cool, it was written by Christina Aguilera for her, so sounds like Christina's style.


Miss independent
Miss insufficient
Miss keep your distance, mmmm

Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way
Miss don't let a man interfere

Whoa, miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her phone

So, by keeping her heart protected,
She'll never, ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love

What is this feeling taking over
Thinking a word could open the door
Surprise, it's time to feel what's real
What happened to miss indepent's no longer need to be defensive
Goodbye or you will love, it's true

Miss guided heart
Miss play it smart
Miss if you wanna use that line, you better not start

Oh, but she miscalculated
She didn't wanna end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love

So, by changing a misconception,
She went in a new direction
And found inside, she felt a connection
She fell in love

What is this feeling taking over
Thinking a word could open the door
Surprise, it's time to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive
Goodbye or you will love, it's true (will love, it's true)

When miss independent walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to miss no longer afraid?
It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
So miss independent had more to say
I'm so glad I've finally seen

What is this feeling taking over
Thinking a word could open the door
Surprise, it's time to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive
Goodbye or you will love, it's true (will love, it's true)

Miss independent

X-men


You are Storm!

You are very strong and very protective of those
you love. You are in tune with nature and are
very concerned with justice and humanity.
Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears
are very hard for you to overcome, and can
often inhibit you when most need to be strong.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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How cool I'm Storm!
I wanna watch X-Men 2! Dion, Kelly it's a date ah, X-Men 2 after exams!!

Racists

How can American not vote for Ruben and Trenyce, and caused them to be in the bottom two? And how on earth can they keep Joshua Grayson? He stinks! I'm serious he does. You call what he does singing? What's wrong with you America? First, you kept Carmen on for so long and now Joshua? They cant sing for nutz I tell you. Fuming mad! Sheesh. I suspect it's coz they are racist! Just coz they're black it ain't mean they are no good! I bet with the war over now, the marines must be hella free and are voting for their fellow marine guy. But Joshua is simply no cut out for being the American Idol.

Ruben Studder is the man and I like Trenyce and she sings great too! In fact I felt she gave a very good performace yesterday. How can America do this to the both of you! If Joshua is really the one American choose to be the American Idol, I tell you, even Randy, Paula and Simon will be pissed and will probably quit. There's no way, Joshua can ever redemn himself in this show. He's up against all these power houses. And a new addition is Kimberly Locke, you go Ger!

Please America, kick Joshua out! Please vote with your ears!!!

Blindfolded

Being blindfolded is not a feeling I like very much. Thanks to my dear friends who wanted to gimme a surprise, they did just that. But later redeemed themselves when they surprised me with a birthday cake. Thanks for the lovely gesture, but no thanks for scaring me that I was going to be saboed. I'm seriously sucha scardy cat! I'm probably the kind that gives people who work in those huanted house theme rides the most thrill. Coz I'll just scream and maybe even cry. Haha who knows. Yah and even faint!

Still feeling so full from all the food, cake and alcohol. *pats my round tummy*

Take Comfort...

Which is more comforting for you...

1. Lying down on the couch, or stretching out on a recliner?
Neither. On the best place on earth, my good old bed :)
2. Going barefoot or wearing soft slippers?
Going bare..footed that is
3. Eating ice cream, or pizza?
I'll go with eating chocolate cheese cake
4. Watching on TV...a classic movie or a reality show?
Reality anytime! *eye widening, heart racing*
5. Wearing: blue jeans or sweat pants?
shorts?
6. A long, soothing bubble bath or a quick, invigorating shower?
Bubble bath, with Mr rubber duckie
7. Furniture: leather, or something more on the fuzzy side?
Wooly or fuzzy kind. I dun like the leather smell...
8. Soft, classical music, or upbeat rock & roll?
Perfect 10 music, but somehow find myself getting a little too old for it! Ha
9. Darkness or light?
Light. I'm secretly afraid of the dark! *dun turn off the lights*
10. Thought-provoking question of the week: You get married, or otherwise begin cohabitating with a significant other. S/he moves into your place, but brings with them the UGLIEST chair you have ever seen! You really don't want this thing in your home, but SO says it is the most comfy chair s/he has ever sat in, and no way will they part with it. Do you: grin and bear it, or scheme to get rid of the montrosity somehow?
Spill coffee, chilli, soup, mustard, cat poo.. anything! and go Whoops, oh look how dirty and messy it looks now! *evil me*

*HaPpY BiRtHDaY to ME*

Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to ME....., Happy birthday to me.

*ring ring*

SO exciting, gonna get my new long awaited handphone today. I've been using my SGH-600 Samsung for ard 3 years now. So it's finally time to upgrade and this makes it the perfect excuse for me to get once since it's my brithday soon. Going to hop down to Suntec soon and buy the new Nokie 6610 ;) so cool yeah, colourscreen and polyphonic ring tunes. You must understand my excitment coz my old handphone has totally no functions. just a plain old phone. not even the game snake! Haha. K i'm off *Phoof*

Oh yes and thanks to the two who contributed to the "Susan deserves a new handphone fund". Your generosity will go a long way. Thank you, thank you.

Countdown to my Birthday!

I love birthday, especially when it's my birthday! Yes yes, in another 4 days in case you didn't notice the birthday countdown counter on your right. *wink* Then again my birthday always falls around the exams period, which can be really sianz. The only time exams didn't spoil my birthday mood was when I turned 21 :) This is probably gonna be the last chance my birthday falls duirng the exams period, because I'm going to be graduating in about 1 months time. Yeah how fast.. I'm gonna graduate, get outta sch, get into the working world.

But dun you find that as you get older, birthdays lose it's magical appeal? Not that they remind me of how old I am. Because I do feel young and ahem also still look young! Anyone care to disagree? Birthdays now are nothing more then a cake and candles. Good enough that it doesn't get ruin by irrating pests. Hope this year will be more meaningful :)

Everything I Learned In Life I Learned From the Easter Bunny

* Don't put all of your eggs in one basket
* Walk softly and carry a big carrot
* Everyone needs a friend who is all ears
* There's no such thing as too much candy
* All work and no play can make you a basket case
* A cute little tail attracts a lot of attention
* Everyone is entitled to a bad hare day
* Let happy thoughts multiply like rabbits
* Some body parts should be floppy
* Keep your paws off other people's jellybeans
* Good things come in small sugar-coated packages
* The grass is always greener in someone else's basket
* To show your true colors you have to come out of your shell
* The best things in life are still sweet and gooey

~ snatched from someone else's blog :)

Prince of Egypt

I'm not the kind to cry at movies. But Price of Egypt is one of the rare few. Yeah, you're probably going but it' a cartoon. besides the theme song, the whole show never fails to hold me in such awe...

Sitting here, typing this while watching the show really stirs up alot within me. makes me question what was life for Moses really like? Having to know the truth that he's a Hebrew and that he's the one that God has sent to save his people? To go against the hand that feeds him, to foresake the family he grew up with. But the responsibility is upon his shoulders.. Even though filled with doubts and fears, Moses still had to do what God has instructed him. To turn against his 'brother' and demand the freedom of his people, the slaves of Pharaoh.

I'm already so awed by the animation of the plagues and all, the parting of the red sea. What would it be like to live in the days of Moses? This is from the movie, as spoken by Moses to his people who were in opression, "There's is one thing that Pharaoh can't take away and that is your faith. Believe and you will see the wonders of God".

What about you? Do the events and things around you cause you to lose hope? It just seems like there's never any good news in this world, but all that should not rob you of your faith in God. If they do, remember..There can be miracles when you believe in God.

What drive me?

okay let's see, these few days have not been so productive until today. Yeah finally did some decent studies and work. Ever since the exams got postponed, felt really bummed about it. Engine not wramed up enough to go into study mode at full gear. Somebody please MOTIVATE me. But on the hindside, I've been pretty motivated at losing weight. Went jogging yesterday and today. In fact, I ran like 4 rounds today. Which is in no way an easy feat. I think it's something like 5km. *beams with pride* excluding the distance i take to jog to and from the park. Haha

If only I had that much determination for my studies now.. Yeah I will start serious, like oh so serious studying next week. Of course will try to be productive over these few days as well.

*Quarter Life Crisis Alert*

I received a mail from a fellow twenty-something friend of mine and these are some of the extracts:

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We ARE in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Do you relate to that as well? But I guess at every point in our life, there's this feeling we'll be in a crisis... But at all times we can be in the BEST times of our lives. Go live it up and enjoy life to the fullest. I personally think I'm in the best times of my life :) *Yeah*